miss...

browing thru FB photos that friends, or friend's friend, or friend's friend's friend uploaded.. i envy and seriously miss girls nights out with my lovely close buddies in the past... really really miss... remembering the times where all of us will clubs hop and drinks like nobody's business... i miss the laughters, the dance, the photo snappings, the gossips, the heart-to-heart chats after a few drinks... i miss everyone sooo much!! the usual ladies i rmb always ard during all these fun nights - ppl like angela, eve, mun, silvia... i think all these ended after i left PP? or does this always happen when you get into a new r/s? haii.... it's been a long long while eva since i've had gatherings like that, let alone drinking/clubbing... it's not the 'clubbing' that i miss of coz, its the company... =(

sometimes when i browse thru all the photos in the past, ok like the usual EMO me, i'll actually dropped tears like unknowingly.. wth i knw!! lol.. but i just reali reali miss the times shared with some friends which i've kinda lost touched with for sometime.... :(

as much as i love my present life, i wish things cud still be e same with my girlies like the past too...

He's Just Not That Into You...

"Are you the exception... or the rule?"

i am so going to recommend this 'out-dated' fantastic movie that just got to the top rank of my fav movie of the year!

i really have to say 'He's Just Not That Into You' is the best 'romance-comedy' movie i've eva watch... it's so real and i can totally feel it! Yes i admit, i've been thru that drama act that Ginnifer Goodwin did... Waitin every min/sec by my phone, hopin that the next ringtone/msg tone wud b 'him'.. findin ALL ways to convince myself that he didn't call/msg becoz there MUST be a reason.. lil things he do or say just makes me 'thinks' that he 'likes' me...

hahaha... yes, EVERYONE been thru this.. come on!! face it!

n as much as it is a torture waitin for a call that is nv gona happen, at that point of time, it's just tt lil hope everyone is holding on to.. n tt lil hope that is encouraging n motivating you to 'WAIT'.. true enuff, there ARE exceptions but then again, undeniably most of them are the rules...

i simply LOVE Justin Long and Ginnifer Goodwin!! i love their part the MOST and i think they made a really cute pair LA!! hehehe...
the part when 'Alex' says to 'Gigi', "You're my exception...", my tears dropped! awww... he's soo charming lor... n 'Gigi' is extremely cute and natural!

i love it love it love it!!!

well, i'll still like to proudly announced and be thankful that, i've found my exception... =)
No more the call-waiting tortures, the guessing game, the self-convincing lies...
but well, those memories are bitter-sweet too tho... lol~~~

im soo going to repeat n repeat this show! but maybe only on the Justin-Ginnifer part... kekeke... =)

i almost forgot all about this blog of mine... been ages since my last update... whats been happening lately??

WORK.. busy busy busy... stressed stressed stressed... tired tired tired... BUT.. im enjoying the learning process and things seems to be getting on SO much beta eva since i went down to L42.. but of coz i do miss ppl like Uma n Sofia.. this is a tough job but i've nv stop telling myself to persevere and hold on to it, everything's gona b so much beta as days goes by... =)

LOVE.. great as usual.. loving as usual.. what more can i ask for?? =)

LIFE.. well.. wkdays is like a routine... sleep, wake up at 615am, off to work.. bck for dinner den slp... everyday's like tt.. and for wkends? what else??? MJ lorr.... =P i duno y MJ seems to b e oni activity all of us could hv durin wkends... its a bad ting isn't it?? =( but well, it's the company that matters... =)

FAMILY... with our dear Tiffany around now, its definitely SO MUCH livelier~~~~~ =)

ok gotta go for mj..... TATA~~~~

BEST!

妥协 - 蔡依林

http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/330491ht.htm

你总爱编织谎言
我负责配合表演
所有改变 只为了进入你的世界
这情节 重复了一百遍
才发现 是你的心太远

你划定楚河汉界
不能轻易犯规
所有时间 都是先给了你优先权
不自觉 爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协 到头来还是误解
抱着你 不让你飞
历史不断重演 我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重现
你已下最后通牒 我躲在我的世界

你划定楚河汉界
我不能轻易犯规
所有时间 都是先给了你优先权
不自觉 爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协 到头来还是误解
抱着你 不让你飞
历史不断重演 我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重现
你已下最后通牒 我躲在我的世界

你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解 不会再仍在徘徊
开始自己的明天

爱到妥协 到头来还是误解
抱着你 不让你飞
历史不断重演 我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重现
你已下最后通牒 我躲在我的世界

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爱太痛 - 吴克群

http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/281013ht.htm

吃不能吃 睡不能睡
没有了你 全都不对
我都学不会 把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
笑不能笑 哭不敢哭
人不像人 鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这 不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯

能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把爱割舍
我不能够 不能够不爱了
我不能睡
能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了
我不能够 不能够不爱了

thanx. =)

Happy 6months, 24 weeks, 168days together - 180309 =)

i've really met the best man on earth.
extremely contented.
pls dun let all these change.

thanks for EVERYTHING... =)

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i knw i've mentioned that MJ is a very scary addiction and i'm gona kick this addiction away! but... i've been playin almost every night since last week... n while typing this now, my hand is still itchy.. OMG~ -_-

lucky i've got a very patient and understanding BF who knows how to control me... and pamper me @ e same time... =P

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did i mentioned that my er jie is PREGNANT?!?!?! YES!!! 7 weeks now if im not wrong... YEA YEA YEA~~~~~~~~~ my family's gonna be so happening next yr... 1 member just arrived and another one arriving v.soon! hehehe...

when's my turn?? :P i seriously love kids hell lots and i really dun wan the age gap to b tooo big between me n my children in e near future... but then again, its still gona tk a few more yrs for my turn to come i guess... kekeke... right now DD n i shall concentrate on planning for a great future for e both of us... =)

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everything's so great recently, as usual... with DD, with friends... but i tink i've really neglected my family lots.. haven been hm often recently n my mama is complainin almost everyday... :P alrighty, once DD starts his new job next week, i shall b a good girl n stay @ hm more often... excludin MJ session of coz... :P

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besides all the funs recently, worries are still thr too... i can just pray that God will make a way out for me soon......

Jason Mraz feat Colbie Caillat - Lucky =)

New fav by Jason Mraz after the top hit 'I'm Yours' =)

Jason Mraz feat Colbie Caillat - LUCKY

(With lyrics)



(Music Video without lyrics)

randoms.

it always feels good after a heart-to-heart chat with DD.. coz he nv fails to put me at ease no matter how big e prob is... ain't i blessed to have a BF like him? always stand by me, always there for me...

beginning of 2009 is terrible, hoping for a better rest of the year...

i need to buck up.. i must find means n ways to have that self discipline/motivation.. its so important to me now.. all for the sake of being able to provide more for my family and a good future with DD.

so desperate now. i hope this could be 1 of the motivation..

all the unhappiness all the problems, GO GO GO AWAY!!! shoOoooooooo~~

may ONLY the GOOD things come by... =)

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i need to start going back to church.. i miss the sense of belonging thr.. im so glad DD is willing to accompany me even tho he made it v.clearly it's all for my sake... -_- BUT, i shall continue to believe and pray that one day, miracles will happen again... just b patient~ =)

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i would like to announce that im a certified MJ addict now! and its really bad, i know... MJ is a very scary addiction... it could easily ruined a career and a r/s... hey im serious! there're live examples (er, i'm sure thr is?).. so yes i'm trying very hard to cut down now and best would be not touching the tiles @ all... -_- hmmmmm... once in a blue moon shd b fine la huh... =P

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its been months since i last stepped into BOILERS... i guess e very last time is during halloween night? well, it's not really a bad thing afterall... BUT after given acknowledgement from DD, i've just jio-ed silvia n mun to BOILERS next Fri!! woohoo~~ pls let this time b a success!!! =)

happiness.?

人与人相处，又怎会没争吵？

但是争吵过后的结果，又会是怎样？

things changes, human changes too...

but... what leads to all these changes?

will everything still be e same?

Define happiness?

YOU are one of my greatest happiness, n still is now... this will nv change...

but...

what happened??

...

first time having this feeling...

so afraid of losing...

so insecure with no reasons...

cherish. more than anything...

this day...

i'll nv forget...

...最幸褔的事...

你撑着雨伞 接我那次
已经足够我 记得一辈子
我懂後来你 不是不坚持
爱情本来就 没万无一失

泪水离开了 你的手指
那不如让它 流在这信纸
我想女孩子 最贴心的是
让爱的人选 结束的方式

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事

可惜爱不是 童话故事
不能够永远 依赖着王子
才慢慢认识 只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心 为难你解释

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事

那一阵子有你 美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕 都微笑着静止
我最幸福的事 牵着你的日子
一段爱从开始 直至分开我们都对彼此诚实
最幸福的事 对那片海用力大喊永远的样子

想得起的事 那天和你傻笑着认识 是最幸福的事...

-ATKE-

i've met the most loving and sweetest man...
i couldn't ask for more...

=)

TRUE friends whom i've not met for ages...

feeling extremely emo now... had toss n turn in bed for hrs n yet still cudn't get to sleep... =(
sudden thoughts of a few friends who used to b soo close to me but haven been contacting for ages...

ppl like angela and eve, used to see them 5 days a week but eva since i left PP, hardly any chance to tok to them, let alone seeing them... =( miss e times when we always hav endless topics to chat in msn, tog with jazz n mon... b it gossips or sharing each other's prob... during tt period of time in PP, they used to b my closest and e 1st few i'll turn to wheneva i need a listenin ear... wondering how r they now n if they still miss me as much as i do... =(

n my dear silvia n mimi... its realli been damn long eva since we last had a gathering... i miss all the happy times we spent tog n not to forget boilers every wkends with silvia n gang! used to hv soo much fun tog... ktvs, clubbing, endless photo-tkin sessions bla bla bla... reali miss them loads!! sorry for neglectin u 2~~ shall org 1 meet-up asap! n silvia if u read this, i MISS BOILERS!! heheh....

my busy girl who has to fly ard the world n oni drop by SG once in a blue moon? peihua if u read this, i do think of u ALOT n reali hope u're doin good now... i knw its v.difficult to catch u now esp when u hv many other friends to meet up with wheneva u're bck in SG, but u're always in my heart n i promise i'll definitely catch u v.soon!! update me when u're bck in SG again... =)

n lastly someone who shared all my ups n downs with me eva since im 7yrs old... all e way till we're both grown ups n havin a life of our own... she is always (n foreva will b) someone i heart deeply n a friend/soul-mate i'll nv forget... frm endless topics with her till awkward conversation wheneva we bump into each other on e streets.. i hate it tt tings turned out this way n i hope i cud tel u how much i miss u n how much tings i hope i can update you... i understand tt things had chged, but altho everything seems different now, but u're foreva tt true fren in my heart since 16yrs bck... u'll always b rmbed bernice lim bee choo! =)

miss all of them loads n really really hope i could see you guys soon! juz rmb if u read this, FORGET ME NOT!! coz i'll nv will... =)

2009

had a gig ytd for Five Star Travel (Client Appreciation Night) with Karen.. Thanks to Garrison and Karen for givin me this gig opp.. :) it was pretty alright, sang 3 songs.. and i think i'm in love with 小娘惹's song 《如燕》.. been practising non stop for the past few days, instead of feeling sian of it im liking it even more now... keke..

seeing my dear Karen so happy with her precious Lucas now, i felt SOO happy for her! =) i'm reali glad that all the unhappiness are over for you now, at least u found a MUCH better partner who treats you like how u deserve to be treated.. forget about all the nightmares in the past coz its over and enjoy ur new life now! meet up for KTV and gathering @ Garrison's hse SOON!! n hope to hv more performance opp with u again in e future!! (can learn alot frm u eh.. kekeke) love u sweetie~~ =)

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this yr's new yr is all about MJ, MJ n MJ!!! n i tink im totally addicted to it now lor.. unlike e past when i oni play for e sake of entertainin my friends... OMG... i shd reali control myself man.. DD doesn't likes it.. =( but lucky ting is we dun play so big la... hehe..

my bitches mun n moy woke me up earli in e morning on CNY chu 3 (its considered earli to me) @ 11plus suggested gg to Sentosa... how enthu cud they be man... n we reali did went! it was so fun gg to sun-tanning with ur bestest buddies.. n e ting is i've nv expected gg with them becoz mun n i used to HATE sun so much... ekekke... nw i tink we will frequent thr often already... =D

met up with Aquarians last sunday... finali went for our long-awaited KTV and steamboat! but too bad our dear BL and XZ cudn't join us n Gary gotta leave earli.. so ended up oni me DD ray HT n KM... it was still fun tho!! ray msned me when i rched hm sayin tt he n KM likes DD, n wants me to bring him out tog more often... hehehe.. it felts reali good havin ppl ard u acknowledgin ur partner too ya... =)

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miss the usual gang so much.. chatted with bear online on tue and got some updates bout the rest from him... =) heard tt SJ is attached!!!!!!!! super happy for him... kekeke... n wl called me ytd too coz he met my kor at Starhub D&D... chatted with him for awhile too n we planned to hv a KTV session next week! Can't wait to see themm!!!! =)

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Prayers & Resolution for 2009 :
- Havin a direction
- Start saving up!!
- DD to pass his driving on 030309 and able to get his long-awaited Airwave (RED!!) =)
- both of us to stay happy like now (or even happier wud b beta! =P)
- DD to be able to excel in his new job!
- stay loving n close with my family and friends ard me...
lastly...
- better temper and more understanding!! =P

A-Lin!!!!

m totally in love with A-lin eva since her 《失恋无罪》..
she has got the best vocal and nicest songs!











我不再去想别人怎么看
我就是喜欢自己很勇敢

请别再去想别人怎么看
就做你自己就会很 all right~

things has been great recently btween us.. of coz except for some hicups here n thr...
m reali glad tt my dad likes him too.. =) its kinda shockin tt he wud come up to me n tell me tt DD is not bad n ask me to cherish him.. its nt reali smthin tt he will do ya... at least nv in e past..

the 5days BKK trip is as usual, funnn with all the shopping and FOODS!! oh n we're not aware of the weather b4 we go.. how unlucky we are the temp dropped to 18degrees (accordin to my er jie) and we're freakin cold for the 1st 3 days.. n e worse is, all the clothings i brought r sleeveless, no jackets @ all! ~_~

im missing the tom yum already... sob sob...

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caught a few movies recently.. all THUMBS UP!!

Bedtime Story - by my fav comedian Adam Sandler and as usual im laffin my ass off in the cinema lor.. poor DD had to suffer hittings frm me... hehe.. =P i tink this deserves a 8/10
Yes Man - hmm i thought it was alright only.. dun reali fancy this as much as Bedtime Story.. prob coz im not reali a big fan of Jim Carrey.. the 2nd half of e show r much nicer tho.. hmm 6.5/10
IP Man - BEST MOVIE OF THE YEAR!! mei hua shuo... 10/10! =D
Red Cliff II - i think this is much nicer than Part I... at least im stayin focused thru out the whole movie.. one of e main reason is becoz of Tony Leung of coz la!! ~droolsss~ i wud rate this 8.5/10! hehe..

Next up wud b ONG BAK II!! i tot we cud catch this in BKK but its not out yet... =( n of coz all the local productions... im always a Jack Neo's movie supporter~ keke..

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谢谢你爱我
因为你爱我
让我做最真实的我
孤单的时候
偶尔的脆弱
从来不停止保护我
谢谢你爱我
因为你爱我
拥有的回忆这么多
让我依靠着你的爱
此刻以后

=）

鄭秀文 - 她們說

just back from BKK with dearest DD 3 days ago...
MTV channel is practically the only channel in Asia Hotel keepin us company wheneva we're too tired to go out.. but of coz smart DD brought his DVD player along, n we bought a few DVDs frm MBK too.. hehe..
ok this is not the main thing this blog is about tho...
like i mentioned earlier, we've been watching MTV channel every nite when we rched our hotel.. n den i happen to come across this Sammi Cheng's song... i was totally mesmerised by the lyrics and of coz the song itself...

鄭秀文 - 她們說

整个城市好喧哗
谁肯停下来听听女人说话
爱与被爱都慌
信和不信都傻
不就是疯狂换一场牵挂
心里有个男人始终看不懂的世界
只凭着美丽的直觉确定这次要爱上谁

女人们啊别再和感觉冷战
是是非非别退缩爱的勇敢
只要真实过
哪怕最后的结果遗憾
也不怕也不管拥抱时心跳多么的乱
就算恋情再短暂
回忆也有存进去脑海保管
记得住曾经温暖如果还剩一点伤感
时间会冲淡

这个城市好孤单
每个女人全都在学着习惯
得到时有负担失去后会心寒
眺望着爱情两眼欲穿

女人们啊别再和感觉冷战
是是非非别退缩爱的勇敢
只要真实过
哪怕最后的结果遗憾
也不怕也不管拥抱时心跳多么的乱
就算恋情在短暂
回忆也有存进去脑海保管
记得住曾经温暖如果还剩一点伤感
时间会冲淡

当爱不再回来的夜晚
她们说眼泪总会流干
当突然想起某个片段
她们说放下让它经过别回头看

女人们啊别再向理智挑战
对对错错管它们到处流传
真实一次过
哪怕往事会让人心酸
也不怕也不管想爱的过程危险狂乱
就算幸福在短暂
回忆也要放进去脑海保暖
如果爱注定很难别让自己疲惫不堪
珍惜每一段

越是幸福越害怕 怕它会结束。。

haven blogged for SO long!!

been reali lazy and busy recently...
actually busy with what i also dunno... just spending time with DD is more than enuff smtimes... =)

mun's 24th bday on 050109... DA JIE!!! hehehe...
celebrate for her for consecutive 3 days with e same bunch of ppl!

030109 (sat) - cut cake with her family @ her plc (tog with DD, SQ and moy).. after tt head down to Whiskey Bar @ BQ... some unhappy things happened and e night ended kinda badly... BUT everything's good e next day =D

040109 (sun) - ECP!! 1st time roller blading.. DD is e oni one jogging.. e rest of us blade.. didn't reali like it coz e pain on my foot ankle is reali killin me thruout e bladin session... still prefer cycling tho... after tt DD me n moy went to KTV n den after tt head down to mun's hse for MJ~~

050109 (mon) - meant to giv mun a surprise @ fish & co but e surprise failed... =( she saw the 3 of us (me moy n DD) before we rch thr... but still, glad she's happy!! hehe.. bought her fav lily n concorde chocolate cake for her... hope she like it.. =)

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New yr eve countdown @ AQH with some of the AQH peeps are fun! its a good time gettin to know everyone... but due to not staying thruout e celebration, still didn't hv much chance to interact with most of them.. looking forward to more get-together with them... it's really good to know nice ppl who loves music like i do... =)

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lots of pics to update here... but guess almost all can be found in my facebook! hehe...

recently spent lotsa happy times with DD... but due to my over-sensitive nature, i still cudn't helped avoiding small arguments...
hv u eva encountered this feeling b4 - insecured because you're too in love?? -_-

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SOOO looking forward to BKK with DD next wed!!! =D
cant wait cant wait!
5 more days........ =)

merry merry xmas~~~~ =)

PMS for e last 1-2 weeks, all i can say is, poor DD......
but finali it has come to an end (i hope?)... well, it's an every month thingy... bo bian rite? thx for ur extreme tolerance... i will pay bck nw!! =O

things i did for e past 2 weeks since my last update? Hmm.. let me see..
- watched Twillight ( i like~~ e male lead and e father is sibei shuai!)
- wanted to watch Yes Man but when we had already purchased our tix, sat in e cinema theatre, they suddenly got some technical prob or smthin n we're all asked to go get our tix refund! no more Yes Man!! angry...
- had 2 events @ plaza 888 n admiralty place
- made a tough decision finali...
- bought xmas pressies!~
- bought sleeping bag @ Mustafa with DD and our BBQ stuffs for xmas eve!! =D

ok my memory is reali fading... i cudn't rmb much anymore...

n YES! i suggested BBQ on xmas eve (verryy last min) n DD actuali agreed! yippiee! becoz its xmas eve n its too last min already, we cudn't get a pit anywhr in SG... soo, we decided on buying the mini BBQ tingy n do it ourselves @ e beach... soo romantic n sweet~ hehe... ok no la, nt meant to b romantic coz we asked mun, sq n moy along to form a mini bbq party~ geez~ hope it will b fun n successful! soo looking forward! ^^

Xmas day wud b my dearest Tiffy's 1 mth!! so i presume the whole of xmas day wud b spending with my dearest family~ n den singing @ AQH in e night...
im glad i can bring DD along finali~ =)

this yr's xmas is quiet n simple but i still felt gooood! n looking forward to it~ coz i got DD with me and m gona b celebrating with all my love ones! =)

updates!

i think alot recently. and i really meant ALOT ALOT. VERY extreme...
and causes alot of unhappiness to myself. =(
sometimes its really not very good to be a Cancerian...
over-sensitive nature is really B.A.D!

e thing is, i know i'm thinking too much, but i can't stop leh...
this is really irritating.

sometimes i wonder, am i someone very difficult to get along and get near to?
i hate to give ppl this impression coz, i m actually someone who loves making new friends n getting to know ppl better.
but now i suddenly felt that i dunno how to communicate with humans. =(

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i'm stuck in between 2 very very tough decisions now..
i hope my choice will be the right one. and i hope i will have the determination and motivation to really go thru it on either 1 decision im gg to make...
haii...

can i be successful once on the decision i make in my life??

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sometimes when i tried to think, i really cudn't find any flaws in DD.. ok i meant, e way he treats me... erm, or, ok mayb only one..
with no temper @ all, always trying to give me the best as long as he is able to put a smile on my face, always smiling even when im throwing xiao jie tantrum.. thr's alot alot more.. am i fortunate or wat??
but i can still throw tantrum over tt one and only small flaw of his everytime.. yet he is always forgiving...
i m so sorry!
i think he is the only person who can accept my everything; my past, my present, my uncountable flaws, without a single complaint. n he is also e only person i can really be honest with, in everything.

i m blessed. zhen de..

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m sooo looking forward to xmas!!
in fact, every yr without fail i'll be looking forward to it... hehe..

slightly diff this yr, becoz on xmas day itself i'll be singing at AQH frm 9-1015pm..
actually no plans yet till now. probably family celebration on the 24th only...
still thinking of hw to hv a mini celebration with DD on our first xmas tog... =)

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will be meeting Aquarians like FINALLY this coming sat for an advance xmas celebration and oso belated ahting's bday... =)

EAI events on coming two sundays... i'm gona pray really hard that nothing will goes wrong tt day! will b singing 1 song and 1 jingle with a few children... my 1st eva event frm EAI... pls let it goes smoothlyy!!

random...

DD hav not been feeling well on and off for a period of time already...
praying hard that he will recover fully soon... pls get well soon...... =(

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i think im really blessed with wonderful colleagues..
told them bout my difficulties today and they are like all out to help!!
very very gan dong...
but then again, if it's meant to be, it will be...
im quite optimistic now already... =)

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soo hoping that 2009 will be a better year for me...
2008 is e most sucky year... the only good thing is to hav met you... =)
n of coz, e arrival of BB Tiffany!! =)

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i m damn happy that next monday is a PH!!!!
looking forward to all the activities planned with DD... =)

i dunno why but recently i find DD extremely cute and handsome!! (not that he is not in e past la.. notice e word 'extremely')
i love looking @ him and den smile to myself... hahaha...
ok im not trying to be er xin here.... just wan to say out my feelings in MY blog! hehehehe... =P