...The Voice Within...

moodless

2010-04-06T17:12:00.003+08:00

i seriously can't wait for IRON MAN 2!!! Iron Man 1 is such an amazing movie, hence im really really looking forward to part 2!! most imptly i sooo love Robert Downey Junior!! aAwww..........

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i tink i gained super alot weight eva since i joined Sistic... everyday i ate 3 meals... breakfast @ hm, lunchie and dinner... not forgetting some rubbish like chocolates, biscuits, mamee, raisins, bubble tea bla bla bla while working... eeeeeek!
i always tot PP is the most flexible and relaxing job... till i joined Sistic... no im not saying im kiao ka-ing everyday in ofc la... prob coz i just joined, still learning process... i see my trainer and other colleagues wking till late nite 12plus (yes, midnight!) for some consecutive days and how stress they were when they're really really busy! i know one day it will be my turn too but seriously, i dun mind... if the job is satisfying, n i like wat im doin, y not? what i meant 'flexible' & 'relaxing' is that no one is ard to watch ur every actions, can go for up to 2hrs plus of lunchie everyday, eat n tok loudly freely, fb-ing, blogging, msn-ing bla bla bla (i hope no one in my ofc saw tis :P) most imptly i hv nice colleagues! tho we dun interact n tok often, but they r all nice ppl... i think i love my job! seriously... n i hope this feeling continues for many yrs down e rd! :)))

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i wan to travel!!!! really really dying to... tho i promised DD i will not mention about trips till end of yr/begginnin of next yr, but... can i break my promise pls??? i will start saving up now!! if i got e money, i c no reason y DD will reject me on a shorttt trip?? hehehe.. i hope to go on my bday!!! =))))

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i think im very weird.
im always having a different feeling everyday..
i mean. i can felt this way today, but think differently tomorrow.
mayb u will see me blogging about how much i hate my job tomorrow after expressing my love for my new job earlier. Ha!

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knocking off in 20 mins time n meeting DD for 'When In Rome'!! Woohoo~~ Kristen Bell is super CHIO and Josh Duhamel is super SHUAI!!!

good friday = long wkends!! =))

2010-04-01T22:54:00.004+08:00

feeling soo lonely and bored.... haii... DD's @ work during this hour... last min called back due to some urgent issues... =(( ke lian de wo on a good friday eve nite.......

im very angry with myself... due to several reasons tho...
i felt tt my singing really 退步 alot alot... i really lost that feel n e passion, cudn't find back anymore... =( am i expecting too much frm myself???? hmm.. no i doubt so.. coz DD agrees with me too... *cry*
i have alot alot of areas i really wana improve and change on... not only my singing......
n im also very angry with myself for getting affected on wat i saw in FB... damn.

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supposed to go for our dept outing after work today... but due to my singing ended too late, i didn't join them in e end as most of them r leaving early... what a waste... coz i believe this is a gd chance to build up beta bond between me and my colleagues... well, looking forward to the next one. hopefully soon tho~ :)

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found a really good and cheap new ktv spot! the best part is its soo near to me n DD! tt is none other than serangoon garden K Garden!!! cool rite? it's oni $14/pax on wkdays with 2 drinks n 3hrs of crazy session! most imptly chomp chomp is just so near to it, the system is DAMN GD! and and, like i mentioned earlier, its so near us!!! hehehe... happy happy~ i tell DD i wana go often nw... perhaps once or twice a wk??? so tt i can train on my vocal again! hehee.... =))

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i bought sensodyne toothpaste!! i really felt that my teeth is becoming more n more sensitive.. n i need a gd toothpaste for my gg-to-be-decay teeth... or mayb it already has.. too much sweets is BAD! but i can't help it leh.. sigh! i can't believe i spent $11 on a toothpaste! (2 to be exact coz they're havin a promo!!) well tts becoz i dun usually spend my money on stuffs like tt.. erm.. or shd i say i nv had.. i hope its gd.

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did i mention tt i love my iPhone?!?!?! i really LOVE DIE it! i think i can't live without it now... since e day i lost my T90 (RED!), i tot i'll never love anything as much as i love it anymore... BUT, iPhone creates miracle!~~~~ whaahhaa.. ok sorry for being so dramatic.. but i really love my iPhone alot la.. hehehe... n the cover is in RED too! tho not as reddy n nicey as my T90... sob sob... actually my T90 is still number 1! haii...

i wana buy it bck!! I MUST! but DD says if he's gona buy another camera for me again, it wun b e same one anymore... coz he felt tt it isn't tt gd, jsut the outlook pretty... not practical.. *CRY!!* i dun care lor... u dun buy for me, im gona save up n buy it myself! bleah!

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im gona go learn alot alot of new songs already.. byebye! goooood nite! =))

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Happy April's Fool & Happy Good Friday!!

also...

Happy birthday Andy! Congrats on your engagement... Stay happy forever... =)

...loving you...

2010-03-31T09:32:00.003+08:00

i wonder if anyone's still reading this neglected blog??
i doubt so.. since its been 200yrs since i last updated.. :P

anywayyy~ went to ktv last nite with my usual bunch of fav ktv khakis... weiliang, shunjie, may, bear and DD.. enjoyed loads! it's been sooo long eva since we last step in to a ktv together! i can always be my craziest wheneva with them ard n enjoy to e fullestt.. :))

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cudn't get to slp last nite n decided to read bck on my past entries... it was den tt i realised i actually got very very bad memory! alot of incidents i cudn't recall @ all while i was reading... so scary.. =S
but some stuffs r betta off forget la i guess... hee..
i believe i've said this tonss of times b4 already, but i still wana repeat tt only by looking bck, i've came to realised how fortunate n blissed i am now.. =))
tho @ times im still FOC (full of complains).. BUT, tts me la.. hehe =))

Lovin' you is more than just a dream come true
And everything that i do is out of lovin' you...

...No one else can make me feel
The colors that you bring
Stay with me while we grow old
And we will live each day in springtime...

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i cant wait for long wkends!! tho no fun plans @ tis moment..
buttt... am gg for my fav steamboat on fri! hehe.. yuuummyy~~~

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i misss taiwan!
i missssss travelling!
i wan to go bck to taiwan & HK again... i also wan korea, japan, australia, europe, paris bla bla bla etc etc etc... ok the latter will only be fulfill during honeymoon... i hope? =P

we are saving up for it now!! =)))

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i am feeling so inferior recently...
i felt that i sound like shit wheneva performing @ AQH...
i just couldn't find that feel, that passion anymore...
everyone's improving, except me...
what's wrong with me?!
haii...

finally an update!

2010-03-29T10:31:00.002+08:00

Been neglecting this blog of mine for a really long time... Didn't have the time to do so and nothing interesting for me to blog about either...

Have this sudden urge to do so again, no idea y too.....

Joined a new co with a completely different environment n job responsibilities... surprisingly i kinda like it... :) not really used to the environment @ the beginning but as time goes by, everything seems better... This is a really challenging job for me i would say because one of the key requirement is to be really meticulous n i'm well known to be a very not meticulous person... =PP well, tts y i say it's challenging but i'm improving ok! :)))

time really flies... Just a blink n it's already the 2nd quarter of 2010... hv i acheived anything in 2009? The ans is 'No'... 2009 has not been a v.pleasant yr for me tho... in fact, it's kinda bad... but well, at least it's much better than 2008! as i've got DD by my side for all these while... :)

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browsing thru FB n clicking in to fren's FB to check on their status and also to find out how they're doing currently... was kinda dumbfounded when saw an update of a fren of mine... hmm... unsure of y m i feeling this way tho... but well, i am happy for this fren for sure... i do hope you will stay happy n bliss always... =)) thx for everything in e past! :)

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passion isn't going on strong now... :(
but well, i think wat matters most to me now is our future... :)
no longer holding on to a dream that is supposed to be a history...

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family bonding is definitely getting stronger... esp with our 3 precious gifts from God around.. praise God! :)))
now that mum has officially retired, it became easier for us to arrange family outing often...

=)))))

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recently, i fell in love with this song and this voice completely.......

miss...

2009-07-14T10:38:00.002+08:00

browing thru FB photos that friends, or friend's friend, or friend's friend's friend uploaded.. i envy and seriously miss girls nights out with my lovely close buddies in the past... really really miss... remembering the times where all of us will clubs hop and drinks like nobody's business... i miss the laughters, the dance, the photo snappings, the gossips, the heart-to-heart chats after a few drinks... i miss everyone sooo much!! the usual ladies i rmb always ard during all these fun nights - ppl like angela, eve, mun, silvia... i think all these ended after i left PP? or does this always happen when you get into a new r/s? haii.... it's been a long long while eva since i've had gatherings like that, let alone drinking/clubbing... it's not the 'clubbing' that i miss of coz, its the company... =(

sometimes when i browse thru all the photos in the past, ok like the usual EMO me, i'll actually dropped tears like unknowingly.. wth i knw!! lol.. but i just reali reali miss the times shared with some friends which i've kinda lost touched with for sometime.... :(

as much as i love my present life, i wish things cud still be e same with my girlies like the past too...

He's Just Not That Into You...

2009-07-06T23:46:00.003+08:00

"Are you the exception... or the rule?"

i am so going to recommend this 'out-dated' fantastic movie that just got to the top rank of my fav movie of the year!

i really have to say 'He's Just Not That Into You' is the best 'romance-comedy' movie i've eva watch... it's so real and i can totally feel it! Yes i admit, i've been thru that drama act that Ginnifer Goodwin did... Waitin every min/sec by my phone, hopin that the next ringtone/msg tone wud b 'him'.. findin ALL ways to convince myself that he didn't call/msg becoz there MUST be a reason.. lil things he do or say just makes me 'thinks' that he 'likes' me...

hahaha... yes, EVERYONE been thru this.. come on!! face it!

n as much as it is a torture waitin for a call that is nv gona happen, at that point of time, it's just tt lil hope everyone is holding on to.. n tt lil hope that is encouraging n motivating you to 'WAIT'.. true enuff, there ARE exceptions but then again, undeniably most of them are the rules...

i simply LOVE Justin Long and Ginnifer Goodwin!! i love their part the MOST and i think they made a really cute pair LA!! hehehe...
the part when 'Alex' says to 'Gigi', "You're my exception...", my tears dropped! awww... he's soo charming lor... n 'Gigi' is extremely cute and natural!

i love it love it love it!!!

well, i'll still like to proudly announced and be thankful that, i've found my exception... =)
No more the call-waiting tortures, the guessing game, the self-convincing lies...
but well, those memories are bitter-sweet too tho... lol~~~

im soo going to repeat n repeat this show! but maybe only on the Justin-Ginnifer part... kekeke... =)

2009-05-30T01:04:00.003+08:00

i almost forgot all about this blog of mine... been ages since my last update... whats been happening lately??

WORK.. busy busy busy... stressed stressed stressed... tired tired tired... BUT.. im enjoying the learning process and things seems to be getting on SO much beta eva since i went down to L42.. but of coz i do miss ppl like Uma n Sofia.. this is a tough job but i've nv stop telling myself to persevere and hold on to it, everything's gona b so much beta as days goes by... =)

LOVE.. great as usual.. loving as usual.. what more can i ask for?? =)

LIFE.. well.. wkdays is like a routine... sleep, wake up at 615am, off to work.. bck for dinner den slp... everyday's like tt.. and for wkends? what else??? MJ lorr.... =P i duno y MJ seems to b e oni activity all of us could hv durin wkends... its a bad ting isn't it?? =( but well, it's the company that matters... =)

FAMILY... with our dear Tiffany around now, its definitely SO MUCH livelier~~~~~ =)

ok gotta go for mj..... TATA~~~~

BEST!

2009-03-25T13:13:00.002+08:00

妥协 - 蔡依林

http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/330491ht.htm

你总爱编织谎言
我负责配合表演
所有改变只为了进入你的世界
这情节重复了一百遍
才发现是你的心太远

你划定楚河汉界
不能轻易犯规
所有时间都是先给了你优先权
不自觉爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协到头来还是误解
抱着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重现
你已下最后通牒我躲在我的世界

你划定楚河汉界
我不能轻易犯规
所有时间都是先给了你优先权
不自觉爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协到头来还是误解
抱着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重现
你已下最后通牒我躲在我的世界

你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解不会再仍在徘徊
开始自己的明天

爱到妥协到头来还是误解
抱着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重现
你已下最后通牒我躲在我的世界

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爱太痛 - 吴克群

http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/281013ht.htm

吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
笑不能笑哭不敢哭
人不像人鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把爱割舍
我不能够不能够不爱了
我不能睡
能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我不能够不能够不爱了

thanx. =)

2009-03-19T01:46:00.004+08:00

Happy 6months, 24 weeks, 168days together - 180309 =)

i've really met the best man on earth.
extremely contented.
pls dun let all these change.

thanks for EVERYTHING... =)

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i knw i've mentioned that MJ is a very scary addiction and i'm gona kick this addiction away! but... i've been playin almost every night since last week... n while typing this now, my hand is still itchy.. OMG~ -_-

lucky i've got a very patient and understanding BF who knows how to control me... and pamper me @ e same time... =P

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did i mentioned that my er jie is PREGNANT?!?!?! YES!!! 7 weeks now if im not wrong... YEA YEA YEA~~~~~~~~~ my family's gonna be so happening next yr... 1 member just arrived and another one arriving v.soon! hehehe...

when's my turn?? :P i seriously love kids hell lots and i really dun wan the age gap to b tooo big between me n my children in e near future... but then again, its still gona tk a few more yrs for my turn to come i guess... kekeke... right now DD n i shall concentrate on planning for a great future for e both of us... =)

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everything's so great recently, as usual... with DD, with friends... but i tink i've really neglected my family lots.. haven been hm often recently n my mama is complainin almost everyday... :P alrighty, once DD starts his new job next week, i shall b a good girl n stay @ hm more often... excludin MJ session of coz... :P

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besides all the funs recently, worries are still thr too... i can just pray that God will make a way out for me soon......

Jason Mraz feat Colbie Caillat - Lucky =)

2009-03-03T03:17:00.004+08:00

New fav by Jason Mraz after the top hit 'I'm Yours' =)

Jason Mraz feat Colbie Caillat - LUCKY

(With lyrics)

(Music Video without lyrics)

randoms.

2009-02-26T01:41:00.005+08:00

it always feels good after a heart-to-heart chat with DD.. coz he nv fails to put me at ease no matter how big e prob is... ain't i blessed to have a BF like him? always stand by me, always there for me...

beginning of 2009 is terrible, hoping for a better rest of the year...

i need to buck up.. i must find means n ways to have that self discipline/motivation.. its so important to me now.. all for the sake of being able to provide more for my family and a good future with DD.

so desperate now. i hope this could be 1 of the motivation..

all the unhappiness all the problems, GO GO GO AWAY!!! shoOoooooooo~~

may ONLY the GOOD things come by... =)

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i need to start going back to church.. i miss the sense of belonging thr.. im so glad DD is willing to accompany me even tho he made it v.clearly it's all for my sake... -_- BUT, i shall continue to believe and pray that one day, miracles will happen again... just b patient~ =)

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i would like to announce that im a certified MJ addict now! and its really bad, i know... MJ is a very scary addiction... it could easily ruined a career and a r/s... hey im serious! there're live examples (er, i'm sure thr is?).. so yes i'm trying very hard to cut down now and best would be not touching the tiles @ all... -_- hmmmmm... once in a blue moon shd b fine la huh... =P

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its been months since i last stepped into BOILERS... i guess e very last time is during halloween night? well, it's not really a bad thing afterall... BUT after given acknowledgement from DD, i've just jio-ed silvia n mun to BOILERS next Fri!! woohoo~~ pls let this time b a success!!! =)

happiness.?

2009-02-24T15:18:00.004+08:00

人与人相处，又怎会没争吵？

但是争吵过后的结果，又会是怎样？

things changes, human changes too...

but... what leads to all these changes?

will everything still be e same?

Define happiness?

YOU are one of my greatest happiness, n still is now... this will nv change...

but...

what happened??

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2009-02-15T02:57:00.002+08:00

first time having this feeling...

so afraid of losing...

so insecure with no reasons...

cherish. more than anything...

this day...

2009-02-13T18:09:00.004+08:00

i'll nv forget...

...最幸褔的事...

你撑着雨伞接我那次
已经足够我记得一辈子
我懂後来你不是不坚持
爱情本来就没万无一失

泪水离开了你的手指
那不如让它流在这信纸
我想女孩子最贴心的是
让爱的人选结束的方式

我最幸福的事当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人在左边心口保留位置是最幸福的事

可惜爱不是童话故事
不能够永远依赖着王子
才慢慢认识只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心为难你解释

我最幸福的事当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人在左边心口保留位置是最幸福的事

那一阵子有你美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕都微笑着静止
我最幸福的事牵着你的日子
一段爱从开始直至分开我们都对彼此诚实
最幸福的事对那片海用力大喊永远的样子

想得起的事那天和你傻笑着认识是最幸福的事...

-ATKE-

2009-02-10T01:30:00.001+08:00

i've met the most loving and sweetest man...
i couldn't ask for more...

=)

TRUE friends whom i've not met for ages...

2009-02-09T02:02:00.002+08:00

feeling extremely emo now... had toss n turn in bed for hrs n yet still cudn't get to sleep... =(
sudden thoughts of a few friends who used to b soo close to me but haven been contacting for ages...

ppl like angela and eve, used to see them 5 days a week but eva since i left PP, hardly any chance to tok to them, let alone seeing them... =( miss e times when we always hav endless topics to chat in msn, tog with jazz n mon... b it gossips or sharing each other's prob... during tt period of time in PP, they used to b my closest and e 1st few i'll turn to wheneva i need a listenin ear... wondering how r they now n if they still miss me as much as i do... =(

n my dear silvia n mimi... its realli been damn long eva since we last had a gathering... i miss all the happy times we spent tog n not to forget boilers every wkends with silvia n gang! used to hv soo much fun tog... ktvs, clubbing, endless photo-tkin sessions bla bla bla... reali miss them loads!! sorry for neglectin u 2~~ shall org 1 meet-up asap! n silvia if u read this, i MISS BOILERS!! heheh....

my busy girl who has to fly ard the world n oni drop by SG once in a blue moon? peihua if u read this, i do think of u ALOT n reali hope u're doin good now... i knw its v.difficult to catch u now esp when u hv many other friends to meet up with wheneva u're bck in SG, but u're always in my heart n i promise i'll definitely catch u v.soon!! update me when u're bck in SG again... =)

n lastly someone who shared all my ups n downs with me eva since im 7yrs old... all e way till we're both grown ups n havin a life of our own... she is always (n foreva will b) someone i heart deeply n a friend/soul-mate i'll nv forget... frm endless topics with her till awkward conversation wheneva we bump into each other on e streets.. i hate it tt tings turned out this way n i hope i cud tel u how much i miss u n how much tings i hope i can update you... i understand tt things had chged, but altho everything seems different now, but u're foreva tt true fren in my heart since 16yrs bck... u'll always b rmbed bernice lim bee choo! =)

miss all of them loads n really really hope i could see you guys soon! juz rmb if u read this, FORGET ME NOT!! coz i'll nv will... =)

2009

2009-02-05T15:19:00.002+08:00

had a gig ytd for Five Star Travel (Client Appreciation Night) with Karen.. Thanks to Garrison and Karen for givin me this gig opp.. :) it was pretty alright, sang 3 songs.. and i think i'm in love with 小娘惹's song 《如燕》.. been practising non stop for the past few days, instead of feeling sian of it im liking it even more now... keke..

seeing my dear Karen so happy with her precious Lucas now, i felt SOO happy for her! =) i'm reali glad that all the unhappiness are over for you now, at least u found a MUCH better partner who treats you like how u deserve to be treated.. forget about all the nightmares in the past coz its over and enjoy ur new life now! meet up for KTV and gathering @ Garrison's hse SOON!! n hope to hv more performance opp with u again in e future!! (can learn alot frm u eh.. kekeke) love u sweetie~~ =)

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this yr's new yr is all about MJ, MJ n MJ!!! n i tink im totally addicted to it now lor.. unlike e past when i oni play for e sake of entertainin my friends... OMG... i shd reali control myself man.. DD doesn't likes it.. =( but lucky ting is we dun play so big la... hehe..

my bitches mun n moy woke me up earli in e morning on CNY chu 3 (its considered earli to me) @ 11plus suggested gg to Sentosa... how enthu cud they be man... n we reali did went! it was so fun gg to sun-tanning with ur bestest buddies.. n e ting is i've nv expected gg with them becoz mun n i used to HATE sun so much... ekekke... nw i tink we will frequent thr often already... =D

met up with Aquarians last sunday... finali went for our long-awaited KTV and steamboat! but too bad our dear BL and XZ cudn't join us n Gary gotta leave earli.. so ended up oni me DD ray HT n KM... it was still fun tho!! ray msned me when i rched hm sayin tt he n KM likes DD, n wants me to bring him out tog more often... hehehe.. it felts reali good havin ppl ard u acknowledgin ur partner too ya... =)

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miss the usual gang so much.. chatted with bear online on tue and got some updates bout the rest from him... =) heard tt SJ is attached!!!!!!!! super happy for him... kekeke... n wl called me ytd too coz he met my kor at Starhub D&D... chatted with him for awhile too n we planned to hv a KTV session next week! Can't wait to see themm!!!! =)

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Prayers & Resolution for 2009 :
- Havin a direction
- Start saving up!!
- DD to pass his driving on 030309 and able to get his long-awaited Airwave (RED!!) =)
- both of us to stay happy like now (or even happier wud b beta! =P)
- DD to be able to excel in his new job!
- stay loving n close with my family and friends ard me...
lastly...
- better temper and more understanding!! =P

A-Lin!!!!

2009-01-22T11:40:00.005+08:00

m totally in love with A-lin eva since her 《失恋无罪》..
she has got the best vocal and nicest songs!

我不再去想别人怎么看
我就是喜欢自己很勇敢

请别再去想别人怎么看
就做你自己就会很 all right~

2009-01-21T13:59:00.002+08:00

things has been great recently btween us.. of coz except for some hicups here n thr...
m reali glad tt my dad likes him too.. =) its kinda shockin tt he wud come up to me n tell me tt DD is not bad n ask me to cherish him.. its nt reali smthin tt he will do ya... at least nv in e past..

the 5days BKK trip is as usual, funnn with all the shopping and FOODS!! oh n we're not aware of the weather b4 we go.. how unlucky we are the temp dropped to 18degrees (accordin to my er jie) and we're freakin cold for the 1st 3 days.. n e worse is, all the clothings i brought r sleeveless, no jackets @ all! ~_~

im missing the tom yum already... sob sob...

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caught a few movies recently.. all THUMBS UP!!

Bedtime Story - by my fav comedian Adam Sandler and as usual im laffin my ass off in the cinema lor.. poor DD had to suffer hittings frm me... hehe.. =P i tink this deserves a 8/10
Yes Man - hmm i thought it was alright only.. dun reali fancy this as much as Bedtime Story.. prob coz im not reali a big fan of Jim Carrey.. the 2nd half of e show r much nicer tho.. hmm 6.5/10
IP Man - BEST MOVIE OF THE YEAR!! mei hua shuo... 10/10! =D
Red Cliff II - i think this is much nicer than Part I... at least im stayin focused thru out the whole movie.. one of e main reason is becoz of Tony Leung of coz la!! ~droolsss~ i wud rate this 8.5/10! hehe..

Next up wud b ONG BAK II!! i tot we cud catch this in BKK but its not out yet... =( n of coz all the local productions... im always a Jack Neo's movie supporter~ keke..

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谢谢你爱我
因为你爱我
让我做最真实的我
孤单的时候
偶尔的脆弱
从来不停止保护我
谢谢你爱我
因为你爱我
拥有的回忆这么多
让我依靠着你的爱
此刻以后

=）

鄭秀文 - 她們說

2009-01-21T13:30:00.002+08:00

just back from BKK with dearest DD 3 days ago...
MTV channel is practically the only channel in Asia Hotel keepin us company wheneva we're too tired to go out.. but of coz smart DD brought his DVD player along, n we bought a few DVDs frm MBK too.. hehe..
ok this is not the main thing this blog is about tho...
like i mentioned earlier, we've been watching MTV channel every nite when we rched our hotel.. n den i happen to come across this Sammi Cheng's song... i was totally mesmerised by the lyrics and of coz the song itself...

鄭秀文 - 她們說

整个城市好喧哗
谁肯停下来听听女人说话
爱与被爱都慌
信和不信都傻
不就是疯狂换一场牵挂
心里有个男人始终看不懂的世界
只凭着美丽的直觉确定这次要爱上谁

女人们啊别再和感觉冷战
是是非非别退缩爱的勇敢
只要真实过
哪怕最后的结果遗憾
也不怕也不管拥抱时心跳多么的乱
就算恋情再短暂
回忆也有存进去脑海保管
记得住曾经温暖如果还剩一点伤感
时间会冲淡

这个城市好孤单
每个女人全都在学着习惯
得到时有负担失去后会心寒
眺望着爱情两眼欲穿

女人们啊别再和感觉冷战
是是非非别退缩爱的勇敢
只要真实过
哪怕最后的结果遗憾
也不怕也不管拥抱时心跳多么的乱
就算恋情在短暂
回忆也有存进去脑海保管
记得住曾经温暖如果还剩一点伤感
时间会冲淡

当爱不再回来的夜晚
她们说眼泪总会流干
当突然想起某个片段
她们说放下让它经过别回头看

女人们啊别再向理智挑战
对对错错管它们到处流传
真实一次过
哪怕往事会让人心酸
也不怕也不管想爱的过程危险狂乱
就算幸福在短暂
回忆也要放进去脑海保暖
如果爱注定很难别让自己疲惫不堪
珍惜每一段

越是幸福越害怕怕它会结束。。

2009-01-09T00:28:00.003+08:00

haven blogged for SO long!!

been reali lazy and busy recently...
actually busy with what i also dunno... just spending time with DD is more than enuff smtimes... =)

mun's 24th bday on 050109... DA JIE!!! hehehe...
celebrate for her for consecutive 3 days with e same bunch of ppl!

030109 (sat) - cut cake with her family @ her plc (tog with DD, SQ and moy).. after tt head down to Whiskey Bar @ BQ... some unhappy things happened and e night ended kinda badly... BUT everything's good e next day =D

040109 (sun) - ECP!! 1st time roller blading.. DD is e oni one jogging.. e rest of us blade.. didn't reali like it coz e pain on my foot ankle is reali killin me thruout e bladin session... still prefer cycling tho... after tt DD me n moy went to KTV n den after tt head down to mun's hse for MJ~~

050109 (mon) - meant to giv mun a surprise @ fish & co but e surprise failed... =( she saw the 3 of us (me moy n DD) before we rch thr... but still, glad she's happy!! hehe.. bought her fav lily n concorde chocolate cake for her... hope she like it.. =)

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New yr eve countdown @ AQH with some of the AQH peeps are fun! its a good time gettin to know everyone... but due to not staying thruout e celebration, still didn't hv much chance to interact with most of them.. looking forward to more get-together with them... it's really good to know nice ppl who loves music like i do... =)

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lots of pics to update here... but guess almost all can be found in my facebook! hehe...

recently spent lotsa happy times with DD... but due to my over-sensitive nature, i still cudn't helped avoiding small arguments...
hv u eva encountered this feeling b4 - insecured because you're too in love?? -_-

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SOOO looking forward to BKK with DD next wed!!! =D
cant wait cant wait!
5 more days........ =)

merry merry xmas~~~~ =)

2008-12-23T10:00:00.002+08:00

PMS for e last 1-2 weeks, all i can say is, poor DD......
but finali it has come to an end (i hope?)... well, it's an every month thingy... bo bian rite? thx for ur extreme tolerance... i will pay bck nw!! =O

things i did for e past 2 weeks since my last update? Hmm.. let me see..
- watched Twillight ( i like~~ e male lead and e father is sibei shuai!)
- wanted to watch Yes Man but when we had already purchased our tix, sat in e cinema theatre, they suddenly got some technical prob or smthin n we're all asked to go get our tix refund! no more Yes Man!! angry...
- had 2 events @ plaza 888 n admiralty place
- made a tough decision finali...
- bought xmas pressies!~
- bought sleeping bag @ Mustafa with DD and our BBQ stuffs for xmas eve!! =D

ok my memory is reali fading... i cudn't rmb much anymore...

n YES! i suggested BBQ on xmas eve (verryy last min) n DD actuali agreed! yippiee! becoz its xmas eve n its too last min already, we cudn't get a pit anywhr in SG... soo, we decided on buying the mini BBQ tingy n do it ourselves @ e beach... soo romantic n sweet~ hehe... ok no la, nt meant to b romantic coz we asked mun, sq n moy along to form a mini bbq party~ geez~ hope it will b fun n successful! soo looking forward! ^^

Xmas day wud b my dearest Tiffy's 1 mth!! so i presume the whole of xmas day wud b spending with my dearest family~ n den singing @ AQH in e night...
im glad i can bring DD along finali~ =)

this yr's xmas is quiet n simple but i still felt gooood! n looking forward to it~ coz i got DD with me and m gona b celebrating with all my love ones! =)

updates!

2008-12-11T17:06:00.003+08:00

i think alot recently. and i really meant ALOT ALOT. VERY extreme...
and causes alot of unhappiness to myself. =(
sometimes its really not very good to be a Cancerian...
over-sensitive nature is really B.A.D!

e thing is, i know i'm thinking too much, but i can't stop leh...
this is really irritating.

sometimes i wonder, am i someone very difficult to get along and get near to?
i hate to give ppl this impression coz, i m actually someone who loves making new friends n getting to know ppl better.
but now i suddenly felt that i dunno how to communicate with humans. =(

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i'm stuck in between 2 very very tough decisions now..
i hope my choice will be the right one. and i hope i will have the determination and motivation to really go thru it on either 1 decision im gg to make...
haii...

can i be successful once on the decision i make in my life??

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sometimes when i tried to think, i really cudn't find any flaws in DD.. ok i meant, e way he treats me... erm, or, ok mayb only one..
with no temper @ all, always trying to give me the best as long as he is able to put a smile on my face, always smiling even when im throwing xiao jie tantrum.. thr's alot alot more.. am i fortunate or wat??
but i can still throw tantrum over tt one and only small flaw of his everytime.. yet he is always forgiving...
i m so sorry!
i think he is the only person who can accept my everything; my past, my present, my uncountable flaws, without a single complaint. n he is also e only person i can really be honest with, in everything.

i m blessed. zhen de..

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m sooo looking forward to xmas!!
in fact, every yr without fail i'll be looking forward to it... hehe..

slightly diff this yr, becoz on xmas day itself i'll be singing at AQH frm 9-1015pm..
actually no plans yet till now. probably family celebration on the 24th only...
still thinking of hw to hv a mini celebration with DD on our first xmas tog... =)

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will be meeting Aquarians like FINALLY this coming sat for an advance xmas celebration and oso belated ahting's bday... =)

EAI events on coming two sundays... i'm gona pray really hard that nothing will goes wrong tt day! will b singing 1 song and 1 jingle with a few children... my 1st eva event frm EAI... pls let it goes smoothlyy!!

random...

2008-12-04T17:32:00.002+08:00

DD hav not been feeling well on and off for a period of time already...
praying hard that he will recover fully soon... pls get well soon...... =(

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i think im really blessed with wonderful colleagues..
told them bout my difficulties today and they are like all out to help!!
very very gan dong...
but then again, if it's meant to be, it will be...
im quite optimistic now already... =)

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soo hoping that 2009 will be a better year for me...
2008 is e most sucky year... the only good thing is to hav met you... =)
n of coz, e arrival of BB Tiffany!! =)

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i m damn happy that next monday is a PH!!!!
looking forward to all the activities planned with DD... =)

i dunno why but recently i find DD extremely cute and handsome!! (not that he is not in e past la.. notice e word 'extremely')
i love looking @ him and den smile to myself... hahaha...
ok im not trying to be er xin here.... just wan to say out my feelings in MY blog! hehehehe... =P

pics!!! =D

2008-12-03T20:28:00.019+08:00

Q called me on mon and told me something about Mark...

Sincerely pray and hope that he will wake up soon...

Everyone's waiting for you to wake up, be strong Mark!!

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Not a good day @ work today... in fact, very very lousy...
felt v.lost for a moment and didn't knw what to do...
don't have the mood to talk to anyone in office too... h
ate this feeling but hope it wudn't affect my r/s with dearest colleagues...

unhappiness go far far!!!!! haiii...

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pics below taken during DD's bday... =)

Genting pics file too big, lazy to upload here... hehe..

my enjoyable week!!

2008-12-01T16:53:00.004+08:00

last week is a very tiring but happy week...
i took 2 days (mon and tue) rushing out a hand-made gift and cake for DD... n his bday is on thurs!
i think im a super woman... the gift is 'bu jian dan' lor... tho its only a simple gift but really alot of work and effort is needed... i need to pick n choose e best pics, develop, buy this buy that, cut here cut there, paste here paste there blah blah blah... i almost break my back doing that...
n im nv someone who loves or enjoy baking cakes/biscuits.. yes i've tried b4 but tts like donkey yrs ago and the end product usually sux... =X i took 1 day to learn this Philadelphia cheese cake and e 2nd day the real one! (ok its oso becoz i dun hv extra time to waste on it) tho the taste is not perfect BUT at least its edible ok... i still tink i deserve a pat on my back! such a short period of time n the result is kinda satisfying, ok at least to me.. kekeke... =P

i think DD felt that e biggest surprise is me appearing outside his house @ 12am sharp! very funny actually... if not becoz he is doing night shift for mon-wed, i wudn't even hv e time to do anything for him.. (since almost everyday im spending with him!) n becoz im sooo busy rushing his gifts on mon n tue, i sort of neglected him... few smses, no calls, cold replies... this obviously leads to him thinking thr's smthin wrong between us... so since i felt tt the surprise wud b bigger with him feeling this way @ tt time, i continue to act... geeez~ n on wed nite, just nice my baobei tiffany is out!! so my reason for him is i'll b busy e whole nite in the hospital and looking after Thad boy, so i wun b contactin him till thurs... hohoho~ tt is e reason y he is soo surprise when he saw me outside his hse @ 12 sharp! n i reali mean SHARP ok! not even a single min late or earli... hehehe...

all the rushing here and there, lack of sleep is all worth it seeing him appreciating what i've done... =)

brought him to Jewel Box - Sapphire for his bday dinner on thurs nite... we both heart the plc! the atmosphere is good and tho the chicken i ordered sux, the T-bone steak he ordered is YUMMY!! becoz its winter season, they hv this snow show and complimentary cable car ride for us just for an extra $4 per head.. so nice rite?? the snow show is so-so but we both enjoyed the cable car ride! we're like 2 kids lor... coz both of us haven been sitting cable car since like duno how many million yrs ago... overall we definitely enjoyed so much...
i love winter season, i love XMAS!!! =D

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im currently addicted to this taiwan drama 《不良校花》 by Rainie Yang and Wilber Pan... its freaking hilarious and Rainie's super duper funny and err ugly in this show lor... hahaa... Wilber is as usual - cool and charming... alright i hv to admit its a kinda dumb show but i just enjoy laughing at the hilarious characters and plot... =P

watched till 3plus am on thurs and got chased to sleep by DD since we hv to wake up as early as 545am for our Genting trip! our v.first trip tog~ =)

some small unhappy stuffs happened on e journey thr (all thx to five star), during the trip and on e way back from the trip... but still, we still enjoy the process thr and most imptly, each other's company... since nothing much to do at Genting, its definitely a v.relaxing trip for both of us... oh, we both love the rides at theme park!!! hehehe...
Genting is freaking cold that 3 days when we're thr.. i've nv felt this cold b4 during all my previous trips thr... but i love e weather~~~~~~~~~

will post up photos during DD's bday and our Genting trip tonight! =)

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i m SOOO HAPPY!!!!

Baby Tiffany is EXTREMELY CUTE AND BEAUTIFUL!!!!
Thank God she is delivered safely... and thank God too for such a lovely niece... =)

26th Nov 2008 - the day she is born...
1 day before DD's bday... hehe...

my fussy sis still haven decide on her chi name...
i gave her this - Tiffany Ting （陈）Ning (宁） Xuan （萱）
duno my er jie or who suggested this - Tiffany Ting （陈）Rui （瑞）Ning （宁）
i think she is deciding between this 2... i think both are nice, but of coz still prefer the one i gave... hehee... if she is not using this, i'll take it for my future daughter... =P Oh.. b4 this Ning Xuan, i thought of another nice name for my future daughter too... errrrr but m nt gona say it here... hehehe... =P

i misss Baby Tiffy and Thad boy soo much during my stay @ Genting!! m gona fly over to Bishan to see them 2 once i knock off from work in 30 mins time!!

Thad boy is super cute... my er jie sms-ed me when im @ genting n say Thad carry a small luggage bag and as he pull he said this "im going genting to find xiaoyi and uncle alex... byebye......" hahahaha... super cutee lor!!

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m dead tired... my eyes is soo small and sleepy thruout e day... sobz...
oh did i mention tt im supposed to rch SG @ 10plus pm ytd but due to the super massive jam, i oni rched @ 12plus 1am!! arghh... n i only slept @ 3plus last nite... -___-

wkends with my love ones..

2008-11-24T14:41:00.021+08:00

Had a great wkend as usual~ =)

MJ session on Fri nite with DD mun and moy... dear is surprisingly the big winner for tt night!! coz he's always losing... =P

but still enjoyed the session tho me n moy lose big time~ hehz~

Slept and slack on Sat till evening time den me and DD went to bishan J8 to catch Chi Hwa Hwa!! very nice~~ the doggies are indeed super cute! tho thr's no schnauzer -_-

we woke up as earli as 8am on Sun, meet er jie and SH @ jie's plc to pick Thad up, den off we go to the ZOO~~~~~~ Thad is soo excited and happy thruout the outing... hehe.. tho it's a very hot and tiring day for US (coz we gotta take turns to carry our big boy Thaddy) but all of us enjoyed to the max still! =D

i love outings like that with my love ones... n i luv seeing Thad boy enjoying himself so much! hehe... he nv fails to make our day... =)

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this week would be another busy and fun week~

DD's bday in 3 days time! Genting in 4 days time!

n lastly, Tiffany is arriving within these 2 days!!

yahoooo!!!~~~

can't wait can't wait!! =D

Dedicated to 黎礎寧..

2008-11-19T10:05:00.005+08:00

Being an avid follower of 星光大道 (esp season 3, n i stopped at 3), it's very normal for us to have a favourite out of so many... n my fav in season 3 has always been 黎礎寧.. in many of my prevous entries, i've posted up clips of hers and emphasized on how much i love her voice... i really admire and envy voice likes hers... she has a gifted vocal, n she is definitely going to shine...

but...

this morning i received news from Jazz that this fav singer of mine commited suicide and died 8 days again... this is SO unbelievable!!

i rmb this conversation on monday during dinner with my family, we're discussing on the chinese name for our dear Tiffany who is arriving in early dec... n den suddenly i said

me: chu ning? nice leh... li chu ning, xing guang da dao one.. haha

er jie: oh, e one who commited suicide ar? some1 frm xing guang commited suicide leh.. tink is one of e top 3 winner.. but i think is xing guang 4 la..

me: huh??? dun shock me leh... r u sure is xing guang 4 anot?!?!

er jie: yaa...... i think so??

but... haii... its really her... what a waste! =( felt so 心酸 when Jazz confirmed to me is her...

one of my most fav song of hers in xing guang... see how good she is??

-Rest in Peace... Your beautiful and powerful voice will be remembered always...-

my sweet boy. =)

2008-11-07T17:32:00.003+08:00

my DD is super super sweet...
had my performance on wed frm 9-1015pm.. since DD got class, he said he will leave sch @ 930pm and den come and fetch me from AQH...
he reached earlier than i expected, and waited for i tink near to an hr or so till i finished everything...
earlier in e noon he told me that he had some credits for me when we mit up tt nite.. so on our way to find a plc for dinner/supper i kept pestering for tt 'credit'.. he say he will giv me next time instead so i thought he didn't prepare anythin at all... disappointed... -_-
den while we're eating halfway suddenly he took out 2 boxes of my craves - Royce! hehee.. i expected tt credit to b Royce but what touches me most is his effort...
den i found out that he actuali left sch @ 8plus instead and rushed down to suntec to get it since they will b closin @ 10pm..
imagine travelling down frm Bedok (his wkplc) to Jurong (his sch) just for time to pass so that he can go get my Royce and den come n fetch me...
it might sound v.simple to many of u out there but it really touches me so much! he doesn't appears to be someone romantic or someone who is damn good at surprises, all i can felt from him is pure sincerity... all e efforts he put in just to make me happy... =)

anyway, special thanks to Shin and Seowting for coming down specially to support me on Wed!!! i'm sorry i made you 'bai pao yi tang' last week... hehe... sorry that i didn't have time to talk to you guys... but really thanks for coming~~~ =)

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its FINALLY FRI!!!
i really really hope this wkend dun be over so soon... -_-

my Thad boy is soo poor thing... duno who spread this HFM disease to him... n his bday is tmr... party have to be cancelled coz he cant get near to other children... =(
his whole mouth is filled with ulcers can!! usually if i have one or 2 ulcers i cudn't tk it already, imagine a 3yrs old boy FILLED with ulcers in his mouth, n even tongue!! he cudn't eat anything, cudn't drink, not even ice cream... *Cry*
ytd i bought a small cup of ice cream for him coz sis said he didn't eat anythin at all... he took a small mouthful of it n den look at me innocently n say its really very pain... a few times he jus run to me and say 'Xiao yi, *point at his mouth* very pain..." i felt so helpless coz besides sayang-ing him, thr's really ntg i can do... haii...
pls recover soon!! =(

finally...

2008-11-05T14:31:00.002+08:00

it's finally coming to an end...

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im feeling very stressed up recently... very..
stressed over work, over singing, over money and every single lil things... -_-
this resulted in my short-tempered attitude towards e person closer to me now...
n this stress somehow also leads to emo and frustration... easily agitated too...
omg!! i'm sorry DD... for the nonsense past 2 days... =(
but 10q so much for your extreme tolerance/understanding towards me...
very loved and happy me. =)

i know there are some obstacles now...
and i know you've been very patient too...
be it towards me or my situation...
i hope u know i really appreciate everything so much! n im not gonna take all these for granted, i promise! =)
like what you've always said; whatever that's gonna happen, it will be... as long as we giv it a try, there will be no regrets... most imptly is we're happy now! =)
THANKEWWWWWW sweetie!!

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for the next few wkends it's gonna be packed with activities... yeah!

8th Nov (sat) - Thad thad's bday!!! still haven gotten him any pressie yet..... -_-
9th Nov (sun) - ECP? KTV? gotta acc DD of coz... =)

14 - 16th Nov - Company's trip to Batam Turi Beach~ not very looking forward this time... no idea why... prob due to the stress @ work recently? haii... n moreover, i've been thr b4 already... hmm...

21 - 22 Nov - Pending...

28 - 30th Nov - Genting!! =D

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m sooooo looking forward!

randoms for the past weeks.

2008-11-03T10:39:00.002+08:00

haven been blogging for likes ages already...
impossible for me to update my everyday for the past 2 weeks tho...

to summarize, i've been a very happy ger everyday (esp wkends) for the past 2 weeks... all thanks to DD... =)

ECP will be our every wkend's activity now... Cycling~~ ok to be exact, i'll be cycling and DD jogging... once i've trained my stamina, i'll join u one day!! hehe... but i tink chances r slim la... hohoho~ :P

im very into exercising recently... i wana cycle, jog, badminton every week!! oh n i wana learn roller blading too! ok mainly becoz EVERYONE around me has been telling me how FAT i've become... but of coz partly DD enjoys all these too... dun forget our bet ok!! :P

next performance @ AQH - 5th Nov Wed, 9-1015pm... all i can say is, i REALLY hv to buck up!! -_- getting my repertoire done is quite a hassle too seriously... zzz..

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i've been very tired recently... didn't had enough sleep @ all everyday... but come to think of it, it's all worth it smtimes... becoz time is just nv enough when u're with some1 dear to u... =)

when i look back @ those ppl i've met (this yr esp), i'm thankful that you're the one walking beside me now.... =)

5 more months... lets b patient... time flies when we're tog, rmb? =)

lets look forward to end of this mth, and jan 09! =D

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my precious niece, Tiffany is arriving in 1 month time!!
i seriously can't wait to see her!!
she's gonna b very beautiful... n we'll all dote on her loads... just like how we dote on Thad boy... =)

tian ish super looking forward to Xmas this yr, my all time fav occasion of the yr...
with Tiffany around, with DD around, i'm sure it's gonna b a great one! :)

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Caught a few movies recently... High School Musical 3, [Rec.] and Love Exposure... i think i only enjoyed [Rec.]... tho i hate movies like this (vid rec thruout e show), it makes me giddy... but nevertheless, it's scary and gross enough to make me shout like a crazy woman a few times... poor DD, thanks for ur tolerance... =P
High School Musical 3 is not that bad actually, but prob coz i didn't catch 1 and 2, therefore i don't knw how to appreciate it... n oso i've watched the nicest musical like Mamma Mia, its uncomparable... but still i hv to comment that the male lead is super cuteee and charming!!! the female lead too~
as for Love Exposure, i watch it for e sake that they mentioned in the poster that it's the korean version of Sex and The City, but, disappointment... No comments~

ok, m going off for lunchie to meet DD~~
appreciate soo much that you come down all the way from Chai Chee just to meet me for that 1 and a half hr everytime... =)

Tropic Thunder

2008-10-25T01:11:00.003+08:00

Just back from watching Tropic Thunder...

One word... AWESOME!!!!

Robert Downey Jr is AWESOME.

Ben Stiller is AWESOME.

the story plot is AWESOME.

the humour is AWESOME.

Jack Black is erm... ALRIGHT.
ok not that he is lousy. but i just dun really fancy him. he is funny, ok at least he did made me laugh but... i still love Robert Downey Jr more. hehe...

i duno bout others, maybe some ppl might think its stupid but i LOVE it! DD think its damn good too.. :D

i laugh thruout the show tho the beginning im abit blur.. but as e story goes i slowly catch the plot and i must say Ben Stiller is goood to come up with this kinda plot.. lol~

Oh ya! you wun believe it, Tom Cruise is in this show too and i swear you will not be able to recognize which one is him till the show ended... unbelievable~~~

i hate to admit but tho i fancy Adam Sandler more, Ben Stiller's production is definitely WAY BETTER than Adam Sandler's... (You Don't Mess With the Zohan is kinda crap~)

is a MUST watch! be prepared to laugh your ass off~~~ (like i did)

and last but not least......
Robert Downy Jr is da MAN!!!!!!!! =D

debut @ aqh~

2008-10-23T16:21:00.004+08:00

1st performance @ AQH ytd... haii... tragedy to me~~~

not satisfied @ all.. =(

my throat is extremely pain n DRY to e extend tt no matter hw much saliva i tried to gather n swallow eventually dun helps @ all... i finished my only precious cup of water on e stage in less than 1/4 of e show... i've nv tried b4 having sorethroat but yet hv to continuously sing so many songs within an hr or more... nt trying to find excuses but i seriously feels quite terrible ytd for tt 1 n a half hr.. =(

but wellll~~ of coz i still enjoy myself loads! coz of those ppl who came down specially to giv me their support for my debut performance! really really, i appreciate it very muchie! so im gona name out everyone! hee..

huiting who reached e earliest! was SO surprise to see her thr when i rch @ 7pm! coz i nv expected her to b thr since e rest of e Aquarians will only b thr next mon. gan dong la~~ =)

DD! ok to b exact, he is e earliest coz he walked thr with me. hehz~

mun, SQ, silvia, boon, mimi, jimmy, bryan (another unexpected guest! but really happy u came! hee) lala and fifi~

n of coz my dearest mummy, da jie, er jie, kor and thad thad!!! hehehe... =)

thad thad ish very very extremely cute ytd!! i dunno y but he just appears super cute to me! be it his wavings when im on e stage trying to catch my attention, or his repeatingly "where are you going?" question, or his very rare shy face when he's surrounded by my friends who are unfamiliar to him.. aiyooo.. he is just VERY CUTE la~~ =)

sorry ppl that i didn't performed my best.. i'll improve n make sure i do BETTER next mon! provided u guys will b free to come down again la~ hohoho~ =P

even till nw my voice is still nt back completely. i think i sound like a man for e whole of today. arg~ angry! return me my voice la~~ -_-

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hmm.. some unhappiness after we left AQH ytd.. but dun wish to elaborate much on it.. since everything's alright now already.. we've said to forget bout all e bad things tt night n just stay happy like now, right? =)

sq suggested on bowling after our dinner/supper @ yoshinoya.. so we all went n due to me wearing dress (i dun tink its v.convenient for me to play bowling wearing a dress) so i ask them to count me out.. DD was still v.confident @ first when sq requested a treat frm e loser side.. ok well, DD lost.. BUT~~~~~ when it comes to e 2nd game... he is da MAN lor!! haha... let me show you the score for e 1st 5 throw... (see below)

yes u're right, the middle score is DD's!! wah... i was impressed and shocked @ e same time lor i tell u.. 1st game he is e big loser (shall nt disclose e score but is not higher than ah-hem 70), den when it comes to e 2nd game suddenly he's like nt himself leh... hahaa..

ok e reason y im only showing this pic n not e total score is becoz... just look @ e impressive side will do... kekeke~ kiddin la~ no more strikes after tt but still e highest! :D

after tt they had a few rounds of pool and hm sweet hm~

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m v.looking forward to wkends!! i love wkends now!! ok not like i dun love it in e past but, i love it SO much more now!!

n i hope this wkends will be a happy one again!! ok?? =)

meet.joe.black

2008-10-22T14:22:00.002+08:00

Finally watched Meet Joe Black... yes i knw this show is donkey yrs ago...
i rmb someone highly recommended this show to me before and said it's damn nice...
he also mentioned bout this very meaningful message in the show and ask me to read where he wrote in his friendster...

"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived. - William Parrish ( Meet Joe Black)"

after watching the show, i know why he loves it...
Brad Pitt is damn charming la!! :)

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my voice dun seems to be recovering perfectly...
still coughing away and the flu dun wana leave me too... =(
怎么办啊。。。

5 more hrs to go!! God bless me......

说好的幸福呢..?

2008-10-21T18:10:00.002+08:00

Jay's new album nv fails to have @ LEAST 1 song to impress me... ok tho most of the time, its more than 1...

now my top fav in this new album is 《说好的幸福呢》..
again, i love the lyrics...

说好的幸福呢

你的回话凌乱着在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌假装没事了

时间过了走了爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得

你不等了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

你的回话凌乱着在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯我还爱你呢
伴你断断续续唱着歌假装没事了

时间过了走了爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得

你不等了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

怎么了~ 你累了~ 说好的~ 幸福呢~
我懂了~ 不说了~ 爱淡了~ 梦远了
我都还记得

你不等了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

sick me. but wonderful wkend.

2008-10-21T16:28:00.004+08:00

tian ish extremely sick since sunday... =(
when i woke up on sun, i sensed sorethroat coming up... den i was praying so hard to let it be just an illusion... e first tot on my mind was, "dun play me... wed is just in 3 days time, i cant afford to lose my voice now!"
oh well, its not just an illusion... coz flu came after tt too and fever joined in @ nite... -_-
went to see doc e moment i woke up on mon.. 38degrees according to doc and he gave me 2 days mc to hv a gd rest at hm... i seriously HATE flu+sorethroat coz it makes me lose my precious voice....... =(
slept thru e whole of mon... im v.diligent this time rd coz i had my medicine v.regularly... m praying hard still tt i cud recover totally on wed! n indeed, im feeling much beta nw already... Thank God... =)

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Sun
rushed down to see Karen's performance @ Expo... sad.. missed her 1st performance with Lovynn.. but well lucky i stil managed to catch her solo one... ger u've improved so much! i always luv seeing u perform on stage coz u look so confident n ur stage presence is always so goodd.. =)
after tt DD n i head down to Liang Court to join silvia, boon, mimi n jimmy @ e new Partyworld... i was sneezing NON stop e whole day... feeling damn terrible... the new partyworld @ Liang Court is really damn nice lor... e system is v.good too.. gav me abit taiwan's ktv feeling... tink i'll go thr v.often frm nw on... we were enjoying ourselves so much tkin silly pics and 38-ing away... e guys as usual, are our photogrpher for e day... we also set timer n took many funny group pics tog! cant wait to get them frm silvia n post them up soon~ hehe... despite my v.terrible flu during e ktv session, i still enjoyed sooo much with them ard! m glad DD enjoyed too... =)

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i really enjoyed this wkend with you so much...
but im sorry my sickness caused some unhappiness between us...
things will gets better n better as day goes by, i believe... =)
thanks for everything... =)

fun! =)

2008-10-19T00:31:00.011+08:00

i love my Fri n Sat!! =)

Fri

have been feeling very extra emo recently @ work... due to the work stress and oso some other personal probs... so it leads to me neglecting my colleagues esp dear lala~~ went to hv ramen with her after work n chatted quite alot... finali a catch up with her tho we sees each other almost everyday! hope we wun hv tis drifted feelings anymore! =)

after tt i went to mit DD... on my way bck, Clarence called me and asked whether im gg anywhr to play tonight... n den immed it reminds me of Boilers! i tink i haven been to Boilers for a mth already... ok i knw, its not v.long but imagine i used to go almost every week in e past? kinda miss e funs and esp Patrick's performance!! so i sms-ed lala silvia n mun to c if they r keen to go... ok oni silvia is keen since she's already outside with Angie n they got nowhr to head to.. so i asked DD n he agreeds to go too~ yea~ in e end ppl present @ boilers are me, DD, silvia, boon, angie and bryan... Clarence came @ ard 1plus for a very short while n den he disappeared.. saw syk and kenny too~ had so much fun with them as usual after so long... =) thx guys~~~

Sat

met up with DD @ ard 2plus and headed down to Vivo for our movie @ Gold Class!! yea! our first time! m so looking forward to it and the movie 'Nights in Rodanthe'! ok, now here comes e highly recommended romance movie of e yr! its by far e only romance movie tt cud makes me tear like mad... n im reali crying so hard lor mind u, not just dropping tears... ='( super sad and i simply love this show loads!!! rating - ***** !!! hehee.. Richard Gere and Diane Lane are both stunning!!! i love this pair... they had another movie tog 6yrs ago.. 'Unfaithful'... tt is a nice show too.. but 'Nights In Rodanthe' is definitely so much beta!

Gold Class is really fantastic lor... the seats are super comfortable and service is good too.. tho i still tink $30 per person is abit too ex... but is definitely a good experience! welll, i'll definitely wana go again e 2nd time!! heehe... DD loves it too!!! =)

Settled our dinner @ Sushi Tei... me n DD's fav jap restaurant! ate to our fullest and den shop ard @ Vivo till its about time to head down to a chill out plc @ Punggol Park called 'Bliss' to mit up with Silvia n boon... its reali a nice chill out plc tho.. played some games thr and drank a v.nice white wine recommeded by silvia n boon... =) left @ bout 11plus n kind boon sent us home... DD need to rush bck to work @ 12am for maintenance till e next morning... poor him... =(

overall i really enjoyed tis 2 days loads!! =)

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tmr is a busy day too~

heading down to Expo with DD to see Karen's performance! i miss this girl SO MUCH! n i miss her voice too... =) can't wait to see her soon! jiayou gal! i hv confident in u! =)

after tt gotta rush down to Partyworld @ Liang Court to mit up with Silvia, Boon, Mimi and Jimmy.. KTV!!! im dying to sing ok... its been damn long since i go KTV! n most imptly... S.H.E is gona mit up againnnnnn!!! hahaha... okok its childish... =P i just miss e times when me, silvia n mimi will always mit up n b thr for one another... finally e 3 of us are gona mit up again! =)

cant wait for tmr..... *grinz*

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the chat means alot to me...

thanks for giving me time and always being so understanding...

i will do my part too and hope things will turns out good in e future...

i really hope. =)

Lara - 下雨天

2008-10-15T04:05:00.004+08:00

DD love this song and he wants me to learn it... but, its super high n difficult you know?!?!
i will try my best la, but no guarantee... =P

anyway, i think the lyrics is super meaningful...... n sad.

下雨天

下雨天了怎么办我好想你
不敢打给你我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉溺
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
差别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不清那些
差别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
差别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

丁噹 - 猜不透

2008-10-15T04:00:00.002+08:00

Another new fav... currently learning~

猜不透

猜不透
你最近时好时坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
让试探为彼此的心上了锁

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸是真的是热的

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸是真的是热的

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已不想追究
越是在乎的人越是猜不透

S.H.E - 安静了

2008-10-15T03:56:00.002+08:00

my fav song in S.H.E's new album!

安静了

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
却成了单人结婚进行曲
在这场爱情角力的拔河里
爱我还是爱你
你选择了自己 wo~

撒娇的可爱的
迷人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的
如今我还在原地
你却走回你的记忆

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
安静了在我枕边的梦里
我知道相爱原本就不容易
爱不是一场雨
努力就有结局 wo~

撒娇的可爱的
迷人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你爱着你的
连假的泪还温热
却没有人握我的手

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你

Happy Bday Daddy!!! =)

2008-10-15T03:30:00.002+08:00

cudn't get to sleep!!! >_<

i bet DD will go crazy after he sees this entry... me still not sleepin @ tis hr... =P

toss n turn in bed since 1plus... funny, whole mind kept thinking of how things wud b like next wed - my 1st probation performance with AQH... v.looking forward yet m kinda err.. gan jiong? okok quit worrying bout it~ -_-

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watched Painted Skin last fri with DD.. i tink it was ok... a simple n touching love story... but not as jialat as how some ppl told me la... oso not as fantastic as wat lala n fifi had been constantly emphasizing to me... average but i still kinda enjoy~ hee...

sat was a crazy shopping day for me n DD... ok, not me, DD to be exact! he spent about $500 on his own shopping! bought 7 tops and 2 berms! n yes, according to him, this is e first time in his life he spent SO much on pampering himself! DD has always been a super thrifty person... he esp dun like to spend his money on clothings, oni IT stuffs! so sat is actually a super sinful day for him... i can c his heart bleeding as he pays... poor ting... BUT everything seems worthy after he tries it on! coz he looks extremely shuai in his new look... kekeke... oh, thanks for tt dress u bought for me too... i LOVE it! =)

after e crazy shopping @ bugis, we head down to Vivo... wanted to hv our fav sushi tei but spent too much time @ zara, thrfore ended up having Modestos... duno y but i tink e standard of their pasta dropped tremendously... i used to luv e pasta thr so much but when i had it tt day after so long, i was kinda disappointed... DD dun like it too... =( anyhow, we still enjoyed our Sat! =)

sunday! surprise bday BBQ for our dear KM with Aquarians! bought e stuffs needed for e BBQ and rched ECP @ ard 530pm... Gary, ting, KM and zhen are already thr earli for rollerblading... i supposed this surprise tho not perfect, but i believe KM ish very touched by our actions and efforts and most imptly, TING as e organizer!!! this is RARE and UNBELIEVABLE lor i tell u.... =P

as usual, we enjoyed ourselves loads! nice bbq foods and perfect company! =) will post up e pics soon when i got it frm ting (i hope soon -_-)

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151008

HAPPY 60th BDAY DADDY !!!!! =)

celebrated on mon instead n mummy cooked very yummy tom yum and pineapple rice! =) oh, n i bought a super yummy yam cake which er jie recommended frm Angie The Choice... its really damn good!

will post up more pics when i got it frm er jie... =D

my lovely parents and eva-so-adorable Thaddy boy! =)

congrats to me. =)

2008-10-08T00:26:00.004+08:00

just checked music dreamer's webbie...

YEAH! tian got in! =D
i shocked myself @ first coz the first thing i lay my eyes on is the few short listed names below... n i didn't c my name... was really disappointed... den i look up and was so surprised to c my name thr in the 'successful candidate' column! so BIG smmore lor! tian is so proud of herself~~~~ hehehe.. first person i wana share this with is of coz DD... called him immed n share this happy news with him... =D oso tell my mum immed n sms-ed my er jie, mun and moy n inform them too! =)

chked their schedule page and they've already put me in... will be singing on 22nd Oct (730-830pm) and 27th Oct (9-1015pm) as probation singer... was quite shocked tho... coz i was not informed yet and haven discuss anythin too... well, hopefully tt thing im worried about cud b resolved... close friends of mine who read this, hope to c u guys thr to support me tt day okiii? if u're free la... hehe... =)

looking forward~

its a small world afterall.

2008-10-07T17:40:00.002+08:00

alot of communication between me n you these few days...
it's really making me felt so much better...
what you told me ytd came unexpectedly and tho you know i've been waiting for it, i know you didn't said that just to please me, i know you meant it... =)
m really very happy and looking forward (hoping) for more good days ahead...

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had a short chat with lala n fifi ytd after our movie @ dome...
shared with them some stuffs and both of them emphasized on 'Compromise' alot...
n they are right... perhaps i shd learn to look @ things in a different way...

i shd quit being a demanding spoilt brat...
i cannot expect things to always goes my way...
n i cannot expect everyone to please me all e time too...
change!

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it's really a very small world...
DD has been telling me bout this very very close ger fren of his whom he hv known for 10 over yrs...
n guess wat? this ger whom he has been talking about, is actually 1 of Silvia's MDIS close fren Kristine!! hen qiao lor!! hehehe..
n according to Silvia, Kristine told her tt DD is really a very good guy and ask me to grab him tight... ahahha.. n yes, obviously DD is very hao lian over this... =P
but i've nv doubted tt u're nice of coz... not only nice, you're the most xi xin (to a very exteme extend lol) and ti tie guy i've eva came across...
okok, count me lucky this time... =P

=)

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very sleepy... freezing... body aching... help!!

its finally 6pm... Thank God!

the winner takes it all.

2008-10-07T17:29:00.004+08:00

watched Mamma Mia again e 2nd time with Lala n Fifi ytd... i just simply love this show loads...
2nd time n yet i still enjoy it...

one of my most fav song from ABBA in this show... i LOVE it!

The Winner Takes It All

I dont wanna talk
About the things we've gone through
Though its hurting me
Now its history
Ive played all my cards
And thats what you've done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play

The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
Thats her destiny

I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking Id be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules

The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
Its simple and its plain
Why should I complain.

But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed

The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all

I dont wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
Youve come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all......

my wkends.

2008-10-06T11:33:00.004+08:00

not feeling very good since ytd... some unhappy things happened and i have no idea y it happened in e first plc... perhaps i really think too much...

slacked e whole of sunday... dinner was cancelled last min... so since DD is going for wedding dinner, i da bao my dinner bck hm frm downstairs.. lonely dinner... sob sob~ spent e whole evening uploading pics and watching Superband finals... enjoyed 'Wu Yue Tuan', 'Mi Lu Bin' and 'Beyond's performance... other than tt, ntg special with the finalist... perhaps coz its e first time i've seen their performance ba...

thanks for the 'Ai Xin' breakfast... its soo nicey and i love it! i wan that everyday!!! hehehe... =P

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Fri 031008
gathering with Aquarians for ah bao and gary's bday celebration!! rushed down to Bishan to get the cake @ sweet secrets (fav 'Concorde!') n mit them @ The Central.. we're supposed to go to this very nice and posh bar called Helipad @ first to chill out... it's indeed a very nice plc when we stepped in.. but some of them commented tt it's kinda noisy and boring, not a very ideal plc for us... so we left and bao suggested tt we go to Supperclub and Loof to decide on a plc... so we went... againnn, dun like... loof is toooo packed and stuffy coz their air-con breakdown tt nite... supperclub is kinda similar to Helipad, so... we left again... we settled @ the mac @ bras basah coz we need to cut the cake ASAP... also to really discuss on a plc to go... but guess wat? we actuali decided on 'Shi sHa' @ arab st but in e end, we just got TOOO many things to chat till we stayed in mac all e way frm 11plus till 4plus... haha.. wat a special and unforgettable bday celebration ya~ hehehe... but seriously, its nv about the plc, is e company tt matters... we all enjoyed our eva-fun chatting session to the max! we can really talk about anything under the sun... i love Aquarians so muchie!! =D next up - Kian Meng's bday! looking forward~~

Sat 041008
went for breakfast+lunchie with DD @ hougang mall.. n den Steamboat for dinner @ Bugis Chong Qing! my all time fav~~ but this time rd we didn't reali enjoy our steamboat as much becoz we're sitting inside! it's too packed on a Sat n we had no choice but to sit inside.. it's damn stuffy and after we've finished, i smell like shit totally lor! super smelly till i cant take it... walk ard @ bugis and den mit up with mun and SQ @ bishan dome... slack and chat till ard 12 n hm sweet hm~

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did a personality test from an email i received... n i tink its super accurate..

心理測驗題目：什麼原因會讓你想哭?
排一下自己最易哭的原因! (1是最容易 , 5是最不容易)
五個選項分別是：
a. 感動
b.傷心
c.痛 ( 是肉體, 不是心靈)
d.生氣
e.擔心/緊張

傷心：跟你很熟的人覺得你是 .......
排在第 1 - 對很多事都要求很高的人。不過有很多時候都太固執。

生氣：你最希望你的情人是......
排在第2 -不會很客易發脾氣。要懂得容忍你。外剛內柔。有自己的性格。

痛：你想要別人覺得你是 ......
排在第3 - 好人一個。很關心身邊的人。不怕做犧牲的人。

感動：不是跟你很熟的人覺得你是 ......
排在第4 - 一個不會想﹐老是要人擔心的人。 (特別是長輩)

擔心 / 緊張：其實真實的你是 .......
排在第5 -不是很清楚自己將來要什麼。不過就很幸運的走過半生。不會對很多東西有要求。最重要是可以開心過每一天 !

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after the chat with u on Sat, everything seems so much better already...
thanks for assuring me and being so understanding...
there might be obstacles and this road might not be as smooth, but im still hoping...
time will prove... =)

misc.

2008-10-03T10:43:00.006+08:00

DD & me..

Danny's bday celebration on Tue @ Shin 8~

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DD came to fetch me ytd n we had Ramen @ The Central! niceyy~~ gona bring him to e one @ boat quay 1 day.. i personally felt its nicer tho the one @ Central is already damn good.. hee.. watching Eagle Eye @ amk @ 920pm n since its still earli we head down to bishan dome to chill first.. supposed to catch e show @ bishan but bookin system was down in e noon.. if not we dun hv to rush here n thr already.. had a chat with DD n tho thr's some unhappiness in between, i still hope we'll b able to overcome n most imptly, compromise.. like wat u've said, as long as we're happy tog nw... =) mun n sq rched shortly after but we already need to rush off for e show..

Overall, i'll giv Eagle Eye a rating of 6/10... not really that fantastic i felt but DD enjoys it~

TGIF! tis week seems to pass reali fast.. perhaps coz wed is a hol and i'm on halfday on thurs~ keke.. DD is even beta.. MC since mon till thurs coz of his lasik.. gona mit up with Aquarians today for Brewerks and Hellipad (a posh chic bar similar to velvet recommended by ray) to celebrate ah bao and gary's bday! yeah! its been so so long since we had our last gathering... i miss all of them loads! gona hv a FUN time with them again~ =D

3 more episodes and i'll b finishing my 家好月圆！！ like finally.. yet cant bear to.. reali e nicest drama i've eva watch!

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thinking alot recently..
but everything comes to no conclusion..
not sure what i shd do now..
will letting nature tk its course really helps? dunno either..
generation gap? character crash? hmmmmm...
dun feel v.good now... but, 慢慢来吧。。 =)

AQH Finals

2008-09-30T01:33:00.003+08:00

bck from AQH's final rd... DD called me @ 630pm and said tt his surgery is done already so no choice he had to go hm first as his eyes is reali hurting... poor him... felt guilty not able to b thr to send him bck... anyway lucky he didn't wait for me, e final rd is dragged till kinda late.. my dearest moy rushed all e way down to pei me!! n becoz its super jam n she knw she's late, she alight @ fullerton n ran all e way to MS! omg im so damn touched ok??? she's perspiring like mad when she rch... i almost teared lor... gan dong... lucky she's ard, i was in queue 11 i tink n waited frm 8 - 10plus... but well, @ least i didn't let moy n DD down! moy say i did really well n she's so proud of me! hehe.. got inside info frm AK too tellin me tt i top e list n confirmed got in too... yeaaa!!!! sooo happy la~~~ hehehe... but den heard some tings frm AK n i tink i might nt b able to join AQH already... well, shall c how tings goes ba.... still v.happy with all e good comments tonight! =)

rushed to visit DD for awhile straight after i finished... poor him havin difficulties to even open his eyes... he was lyin on e bed with his eyes closed all e way frm 7plus onwards till i rched @ 11plus, but yet not able to fall asleep @ all... had dinner cum supper with him n den went bck hm after a short while... freaking tired now while im bloggin tis entry...

sang 3 songs today... 《男人女人》，《矜持》 and 《燕尾碟》.. all chosen by e judges tonight.. moy oni managed to video down e 1st 2 songs~ videos below~ =D

loved.

2008-09-29T11:48:00.003+08:00

Caught 2 movies over e wkends... Mamma Mia on sat and House Bunny on sun...
me n DD both agreed that Mamma Mia is SO DAMN NICEEEE lor!! really love it! its so hilarious and i loveee their songs so much... Pierce Brosnan is SOO charming SO handsome can??? even DD oso kept saying thruout the show lor... hahaa.. m definitely gg to get e soundtrack man! couldn't stop singing to it... ^^

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met up with mun, sq and danny tog with DD on fri for Tian ji @ geylang.. haven had tt for a long time already.. didn't reali had my fill coz we ordered too little and im not very hungry too.. but still its deliciouss!! den we all went up to sq's plc for Cluedo! the guys love it! i tot it was alright oni, mun hates it... lol~ received a call frm moy sayin tt she wana mit me n mun.. it wasn't a very frequent ting for moy to ask us out esp in e middle of e nite, so both of us rushed dwn immed... was reali heart broken to c her like tt @ first.. but my beloved moy is a very strong ger! she's fine after awhile and back to her happy self again... really hope everything will goes smoothly for her soon... be it work, r/s, EVERYTHING! reali hate to c her like tt...

went bck to EAI on sat and the whole afternoon is spent thr... had a good chat with dai lou... finally... did my recording too coz thr's an event gg on in Dec... lookin forward to it! dai lou has got this ability of making me felt @ ease in anything wheneva after a chat with him... =)
met up with DD after that and we went for Mamma Mia @ bishan! plus my fav chicken rice @ kim san leng! hehe... went to find his friends @ K garden after e movie n hm sweet hm for an episode of 家好月圆..

woke up earli on a sun.. ok 9plus 10 is considered VERY early to me.. acc DD to paragon for his lasik chk up... n he has already confirmed his surgery e next day.. scary.. dun tink i'll eva hv e courage to do op on my eyes... =S walk ard @ orchard while waitin for him to finish his chk up.. tink it lasted for 2hrs plus.. 2hrs plus of window shopping is torturing lor... coz i cant get to buy anything... =( met up with mun n sq for house bunny @ cathay n hm sweet hm after tt... damn tiring wkends...

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received a call frm AQH only YTD informing me of the Final today... i was like, WTH?! i chked e website everyday n it shows TBC even till nw.. den tt person told me tt they actuali already posted up in the schedule column... omg how wud i knw if u didn't inform us earlier?? haiz.. i was kinda pissed @ first coz im not prepared @ all and i was supposed to rush down to paragon to fetch DD after his surgery as he needs some1 to be thr... damn sianz @ first n even tot of not going already... but den i tot already come this far, suan le... lucky i knw most of e duets we're required to learn... but poor me hv to go down alone... too last min, no one's free... =( but anyway i'll need to request to sing e 1st one n rush off to fetch DD after tt too la... hope everythin will goes smoothly ba... -_-

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u've been too good, i duno how should i thank you for everything except to cherish n return double. =)

sweet~

2008-09-25T17:30:00.003+08:00

thanks for the surprise royce from you!! it seriously makes my blue blue day... =)
tho im super fat now le... -_-

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had a bad bad day @ work ytd, due to some unhappy stuffs... haiz... feeling super bluey and couldn't wait to knock off... very sweet of DD hv been coming to fetch me from work since mon... =) n he always hv his own ways of making me happy no matter how terrible my mood is... e moment i see him, all e blue blue feeling ish gone~ kekeke... n it makes my day even more when he took out my long awaited royce! 2 boxes smmore... so sweet of him to knock off from work earlier just to rush down to suntec to get it for me b4 fetching me from work... gan dong~ =D

went bck hm straight coz is wed again, family day~ finali get to c my precious Thaddy boy!! i miss him hell lots can! but he seems so drifted from me now already... coz i've not been seeing him as often as e past, and haven bring him out for e longest time too... =( so i made e effort to bring him to e playground and date him to the zoo next sun! hahaa.. DD was joggin ard his area so he jog to my hse playground to see Thaddy for a short while~ hehe...

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finally all the episodes of 糖心风暴 ‘之’ 家好月圆 ish out!! yea~~ i must squeeze out some free time to watch it during the wkends already... =D

m trying to work very hard @ work now... and making sure i wake up on time everyday and not be late!! tian tian pls be more discipline.... =(

i can sense next month wud b a bad month for me... so much debts and so much things to pay for... -_- let tat come to an end soon......

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everyday is a happy day now~
u've shown me what action speaks louder than words means.. =)

happiness.

2008-09-24T01:25:00.004+08:00

your assurance means the most to me. =)
touched.

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tian got in to AQH's last round! im blessed again! i thought m gona die in that 2 songs but thank God, i survived! =P next round will b inpromptu and duets... i LOVE duets but... i pray that i can survive again in the inpromptu part... =S m damn lousy @ entertaining and if audiences pick a song tt i dunno, no idea hw i wud react lor... but still, i'll giv my best shot~ =) looking forward~

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m SO looking forward to wkends! but today is oni tue... =(

this time is real.

.im yours.

2008-09-23T10:25:00.002+08:00

VERY happy. VERY loved. =)

for some reasons, everyday seems more motivated now...
looking forward to weekends! =)

not sure if BKK trip will still be on anot... coz the air fares increased so much suddenly! just 2 days late oni lor... sobz... =(
DD say its ok if im not able to go this yr, we can go on next yr jan instead since they got a cheaper promotion den... =)

yeaa! next wed ish a holiday! gona make full use of this off day for sure... hee..

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gona tk up piano lesson with DD soon... OMG i'm fulfilling my childhood dream @ e age of 23... =X but m SO looking forward to it... Thanksss... for SO many tings! =)

planned an outing next weekend tog with lala+mr stu and fifi+mr hen... prob KTV or ECP... e 3 of us sure hv lotsa plans in mind... we even thought of planning an overseas trip tog too~ so fun~ keke...

so much cravings... steamboat, tian ji, royce, strawberry strudel, astons, botak jones... -_-
fat like dunno what... =S

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6 months... really can't wait...
i pray that everything will goes smoothly... i really hope!

photos!

2008-09-22T13:55:00.006+08:00

ICE SKATING IS FUN!!! esp with them around~ =D

wonderful weekends..

2008-09-22T10:42:00.002+08:00

my wkend is splendid!!! =D

enjoyed to the fullest coz of you around... =)

Sat - went ice skate with dong, mun and qiang... mit up for pastamania first.. it's dong n qiang's first time ice-skating.. they r damn funny la... haha.. all of them fell except me!! li hai ba... =P we took lotsa pics and videos too... all of us enjoyed so muchie! dong kept saying he miss ice skate and wanna go again soon... hehe... we'll hv lotsa chances to! no worries.. =) wanted to head down to suntec to buy me n mun's fav Royce.. but so sad its closed when we rched.. :( super craving for it can!!! we ended up havin Ben and Jerrys and shop shop @ Carrefore after tt.. went down to Whiskey bar to finish our bottle den hm sweet hm...

some unhappy stuffs happened @ Whiskey Bar... m so sorry i didn't put myself in ur shoes and instead always mind so much on how other ppl would felt towards me... i shdn't react tt way n nt being sensitive to u... but m so so touched and glad tt u've been so understanding... thanks for accepting every single stuffs that i've told you... thanks for ignoring every single stuffs tt u've heard about me and choose to trust me.. its been 10mths since i felt tis way... time will prove...

sun - slept till 4plus in e noon.. so angry with myself for wasting half e day of my last rest day lor! but oso good la since im so lack of sleep for e past week... hehe.. mit up with dong, mun and moy @ chomp chomp for dinner~ den we went to Coffee Bean to chill till they suddenly decided to hv MJ @ mun's plc... tho i wasn't v.keen as MJ has always not been my fav past time... but for their sake, i went still.. i was the big winner @ e beginning den lost back all in e end lor!! angry... poor dong... lose e most... really not his day.. keke...

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Mon - dim sum @ sunshine plaza and movie @ PS with dong mun and qiang
Tue - steamboat @ bugis with dong mun and qiang
Wed - Family day. Hm sweet Hm.

=)

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i dunno who in that group told you all those stuffs about me, i admit im really affected @ first, but what you told me is really more than enough... thanks for believing, it really meant so much......

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this time i'm really gonna prove...

m gonna do everything to make it work...

coz like wat i've said, 'go for the worthy ones...' =)

6 months... let's be patient and wait... =)

bad friday..

2008-09-20T15:17:00.002+08:00

i've been feeling very happy for the past few days since mon... till ytd... some things happened and it really affects me so much... i don't blame u for feeling this way but i just hope you will have the trust in me since we've been friends for life... perhaps i should be more sensitive towards you and the things i do... but trust me that what you've been thinking of has nv eva cross my mind before and whateva that i've done to make you felt tt way, i really didn't mean it @ all... you shd knw who my life is all about @ this moment now... you're the one who understands me the most so i really hope wat happened ytd will not affect our friendship @ all... pls trust me and i promise i'll be more sensitive in the future... I'm sorry...

n i thought this thing is enuff to affect my mood for the night, i received a call from someone straight after e ktv session ended... i knw i shdn't felt anything but... ok whatever... maybe i really shouldn't bother so much anymore... i juz hope everything's good for the both of you now already...

Thanks to this someone for being so understanding and always thr for me when he knws my mood is lousy... =)

Hope today will be a better day!!!! =)

busy bee~

2008-09-17T16:06:00.002+08:00

m keeping myself real busy this whole week.. yea~

Mon - met up with mun, SQ and KD for movie - My Sassy Girl! i still prefer e korean version.. more touching... but the female lead in this ang mor version ish very beautiful! after tt we head down to Coffee club to chill and chat...

Tue - mit up with KD for 126! actually due to me having too much cravings, we're actually deciding on 126, Tian ji or Steamboat @ first... but in e end we still went to 126 instead.. hehe.. nicey~ chatted over thr n den head down to mun's plc to mit up with her after our dinner... chatted ard her hse area n headed bck hm after tt...

Wed - Ai Qing Hai's 3rd rd of audition... its definitely a killer to only learn ur songs 1 day b4.. esp when its nt oni 1 but 2... okok i knw, my fault... ling shi bao fuo jiao... :( since last nite till nw, listen till i wana vomit already... i dun like 月牙湾.. =( mun, lala and moy comin down to support me too.. KD will oso b dropping by for awhile before his dinner... =) i hope i dun sing e first few! bu xi huan...

Thurs - Mirror!!! yea!!! waited damn long for this movie to be out lor... gg to The Cathay to catch it with mun, KD and SQ... hope it will be nice... n i hope i wun scare e ppl next to me again... if i did, pls dun b angry with me la... =(

Fri - KTV with lala, fifi and KD will b joinin us too... mun pao qi us for her mj.. sob sob.. keke.. yea!! been so long since i last sang lor!! errr... i meant KTV.. keke... still deciding whether to go partyworld or Beds.. hmm...

Sat - Ice skating day!! again, with KD mun n SQ... hahaha.. this whole week is dedicated to them lor... =P fun fun!!! its been damn long since i skate man... woohoo~~ progs after tt still not decided yet... TBC ! =D

Sun - Hmm... most prob MJ day @ my mj queen mun mun's hse... TBC again... hee..

yea yeaa~~~ i luv it when i hv a busy schedule! =)

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its finally proceeding...
alot alot of mixed feelings @ e beginning...
found out smthing n seriously frm e bottom of my heart, m very happy for u, really... =)
slowly getting over it, i guess... =)
just stay happy! nothin matters anymore... =)

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for some reason, im feeling beta now...
maybe... i dunno... hmm... time will tell~ =)

aiyaaa, life is short la... smileee!!~

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my whole mind is repeatingly playing that 2 songs nw... OMG.. -_-

no motivation..

2008-09-16T19:18:00.003+08:00

im feeling very moody and down these few days...
starts to wonder if i will be happy again like the past...
seems like nobody will eva hv this ability to make me happy again...
at least no one at the moment whom i've met...
(ok well, of coz mun is exceptional! :P)
i seriously dunno y im feeling this way but this feeling is damn strong...
really, hate it! =(

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lack of stuffs to update recently...
too much to say yet i cant express anythin here...
nothing to look forward to except for the BKK trip with lala and fifi in Nov...
i hope i wun b so broke @ tt time... =(

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im sorry... to you n you n you...
super low morale...
super unhappy.. =(
work sux like hell too... my big deal just flew off like tt... damn damn sad... =(

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ok enuff of all the negative stuffs!!
m going for my long-awaited Tian ji nw! yea! ^^

><

2008-09-15T09:45:00.000+08:00

i am feeling DAMN SUCKY NOW !!!!

arghz!!!!

10 09 08

2008-09-10T09:48:00.002+08:00

On this day...

Happy 8yrs Anniv to the 4 of us!! (tho this yr's celebration will only be e 3 of us.. but i knw she's always in our heart.. *smile*) looking forward to c u guys tonight... :)

Happy bday to you... There's nothing else i could wish for, except for you to be happy always... U'll always be remembered...

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a yr ago from today i'm in HK.. miss the wonderful trip and everything else! memories... i cant wait to go on a holiday soon!!! haii..

smtimes i think it's so difficult... not the same and not possible anymore... perhaps it really tks time... but how long more? -_-

thanks to you n you n you... but... not ready... complicated... dillema... sick... tired... zzzz

dunno what im blabbering about but forget it... i dunno what i wan...
i hope 6pm come soon... :(

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haven been sleeping earli recently...
seriously lacking of sleep...
haii...
life's so sucky @ times...
i wana quit being a thinker!!

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did i mention that i've passed the 2nd rd of audition in AQH.. and next wednesday 17sept would be e next rd?
omg!! im so not looking forward to it becoz the 2 songs that they've chose for me to sing are so coincidently the 2 songs that i'll nv sing in ktv! -_-
thanks.. i'm so going to fail it this time rd... haii...

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i miss gatherings with usual gang and aquarians... :(

wkends..

2008-09-08T09:23:00.002+08:00

spent my wkends with my lovely besties, just chilling and usual heart-to-heart talks...

fri - accompany Angela to chinatown to search for her cheong sum for her fren's wedding straight after work... after that we head down to far east and den after getting her stuffs we settle our dinner thr too... we spent almost an hr plus to 2 @ e eating plc chatting our nite away... n den we move on to Lido mac to continue our chat till 12plus 1am... we're both very lor sor... but i enjoy her company and always felt comfortable sharing my stuffs with her! =) it's really great to hav a colleague like her... love you lala~~~ kekeke...

sat - met up with mun @ ard 4plus @ bishan n had MOS for our lunch/dinner.. ate till damn fullll.. my all time fav fast food.. hehz.. straight after tt we head down to our lao di fang, Oilo dome n again, Ice Chocolate with gelato without fail.. starts to chat all e way till 6plus 7 when Angela came down to join us... smtimes i wonder y do i always hv nv-ending stuffs to chat with my beloved mun... we can mit everyday but still wun run out of topics to chat about... i luv this bitch hell lots! =) acc lala to hv her dinner @ MOS again and den she went bck hm.. mun n i wanted to go to ECP to chill but it was raining super heavily so hv to cancel this plan.. sob.. so we went bck to her hm to slack for awhile and decided to catch a movie @ bishan.. watched 'The Days', a local production.. not very fantastic but still alright la.. can watch but if possible, dun catch it during wkends.. e ending sux tho... till nw im still blur.. those guys who used to be ah beng during their sec sch days will surely brings bck lotsa memories to them... haha..

sun - catch e latest epi of 篮球火 and den slept for a short while b4 mun called me up @ 6plus to get ready to mit them @ chomp chomp for dinner... they ordered so much b4 i even rch thr! 8 dishes in total.. mun's mummy joined us too.. after e dinner, went to the coffee bean @ s.goon garden with mun n moy to chill, AGAIN... yea yea, my fav past time.. we're super steady tt nite.. was talking about this movie 'Make It Happen'.. so i called Colin n get him to chk e timing for me.. oni timin left is 915pm n its already 905pm @ tt time.. but we still tk a cab n rush down to bishan to catch it... hoho~ overall it was an alright movie oni.. cant compare with Step up 1&2.. but i still luv her dance so much! n her figure ish damn good la!

a simple wkend spent, but i enjoyed loads with them ard... =)

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all the wrong ones after you...
hoping...

i thought...

2008-09-05T14:09:00.001+08:00

我以为

以为已对你失去感觉了
以为已忘记我们在一起过
以为想得没错
以为只要雨季别坠落
就可以放心对着你笑了

我以为说忘记就忘记
多么洒脱容易
怎么会看你一眼
头再一点
眼泪又不听话呢
难道说过去总会过去
不是一种真理
直到相遇的一刻
才让我懂

以为已错过不能再回头
以为走太久不能再一起走
以为想得没错
以为只要对自己说
我还好
心情就会好一点

我以为说忘记就忘记
多么洒脱容易
怎么会看你一眼
头再一点
眼泪又不听话呢
难道说过去总会过去
不是一种真理
直到相遇的一刻
才让我懂

冷静的我
坚强的我
勇敢的我
不是我

我以为说忘记就忘记
多么洒脱容易
怎么会看你一眼
头再一点
眼泪又不听话呢
难道说过去总会过去
不是一种真理
直到相遇的一刻
才让我懂

When You're Gone...

2008-09-04T10:22:00.000+08:00

I always needed time on my own,
I never thought I'd, need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone,
And the bed where you lied, Is made up on your side.
When you walk awayI count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone, The pieces of my heart are missing you!
When you're gone, The face I came to know is missing too!
When you're gone, All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day...
And make it OK... I miss you.

《溏心风暴 ‘之’ 家好月园》 - excellent show!

2008-09-02T09:45:00.003+08:00

im currently utterly addicted to the new HK drama Moonlight Resonance 《溏心风暴 ‘之’ 家好月园》。。。

my whole wkend is dedicated to this show... i personally felt that its much nicer than Part I...
right from the first epi onwards, it mades me teared, mades me damn agitated watching the baddies and mades me felt damn warm seeing how loving their family bond is, esp between the siblings and Ho Ma... SUPER NICE LA! best HK drama i've watched so far... damn sad it oni show till epi 19, total 41 epi leh... =((

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watched 4Bia finally.. Thai's horror had always been my fav... esp when its from the same producer of Body#19, Shutter and Alone.. all my fav thai horror!! i expect 4bia to be as nice too but it was kinda a disappointment tho... overall i still enjoyed it la if i dun compare with e rest.. esp story 1.. the oni scary one i felt... Story 3 is damn funny... ahhaha... But well, tho i claimed that it's not a very scary movie, as usual im still shouting and scaring e ppl next to me like nobody's business... hehehe.. not purposely one la.. Sorry ar C... =P

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seriously ntg much to blog for the past few days... coz like i've mentioned above, my whole wkend is about Moonlight Resonance...

i miss my dearest mun SOO much!! haven seen her for like the longest time already (tho mayb its oni a week or smthin).. had so much to catch up with her and i seriously can't wait to see her later for lunch! :) anyway, really glad that she is so happy now... pls stay like this always!! coz seeing you happy makes me happy too... =)

enjoyed the chats..
enjoyed ur counselling and 大道理 speech..
enjoyed the walks and enjoyed scaring you... whahahha... =P

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i lie on my bed for the past 2 days and cudn't get to slp...
browsed thru my hp and reading back all the past sms-es that i didn't delete for the past 2 yrs...
i suddenly realised something... something that i've not realised during that 2yrs, until now... and i had no idea wth did i teared...
i always had this thinking, if only that didn't happen, perhaps everything will still be the same now...
but of coz i know that it's all the past already...
memories are meant to be kept...
things chgs but life still goes on...
i sincerely wish and pray that YOU will be happy ALWAYS... =)

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i should keep thinking of only the happy stuffs, so that double happiness will befall me! =) - as reminded by someone to me..

sorry.

2008-08-27T10:05:00.010+08:00

i know nothing i say would matters anymore...

and no matter what i say, it will only leads to me giving excuses only...

i understand 'once bitten, twice shy'...

but i'm sorry, i've tried, but i just can't...

all the best for everything...

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perhaps its true that once you've met the best for u, it's very difficult to meet another one again...

chemistry is everything...

@ least for the start..

it's definitely not about how good or bad the other person is to you..

and always believe, time tells...

but where?

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curse proven again..

it's really time to do something about it already..

arghz.

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browsing thru facebook and saw many new pics of my all time top fav female singer - Hebe Tian!

one word to describe her - CHIO !!

cuteee! her hair chao mei lor...

pretty anot u tell me?!

long time pic but still very pretty!

i luv this! hair colour so nicey..

very MEI !!!

need to repeat myself again?

True enough...

2008-08-26T10:18:00.002+08:00

im goin to smile like nothing's wrong...

talk like everything's perfect...

act like it's all a dream...

n pretend it's not hurting me...

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Nothing lasts forever...

So live up...

Laugh it off...

Drink it down...

Avoid the bullshit...

Take chances...

Never have regrets...

Because at one point,

everything you did was exactly what you wanted...

hopeless...

2008-08-25T14:40:00.004+08:00

soo many things happened just over e wkends... makes me understand that we should always be wary of the ppl around us... but most of the times everyone just seems harmless to me as long as they treats me nice, but that is e scary part... i should really learn... i hate this feeling... i'm so lost and disappointed now... and i dunno whether i should still continue... 不甘愿！！ =(

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you said that u hope i would at least try my best to achieve my dream in this lifetime as we all live once only...

you said that it's sad to see a born talent gone to waste...

you said you would really like to see that i become successful and sing my own songs on my own stage one day...

and for once i trust that you're really gonna b e 1 to help me to fulfil all these...

i wished too... if only all that i've heard of is not true and if only this industry is not that messy & scary... mayb i just doesn't hv the courage to tk the risk lah... ~_~

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i couldn't stop thinking of all those words he said to me that day... someone whom i respected most... i dunno why but it does hurts me deeply... esp those stuffs that r not true...
well maybe like what others told me, he said that for my good, he wants me to chg... but sorry to say that it only makes me felt like a completely useless person and i should just stop pursuing for this dream... haiz...

stop stop stop... stop thinking...

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i've realised that i really can't force myself to do things i hate to do...

i do admit that things changes a lil too fast...

but when its changed, there's no turning back @ all already...

@ least im like that...

it's cruel but life's like that sometimes...

accept it... move on...

篮球火 (Hot Shot)

2008-08-24T17:58:00.003+08:00

currently addicted to 《篮球火》 starring 罗志祥，言承旭 and 吴尊。。。

小猪 is so freaking funny and thanks to him for brightening up my blue blue mood !!! =D

...

2008-08-24T04:53:00.002+08:00

HURT...

DISAPPOINTED...

GAVE UP...

perhaps im just not cut out to be...

人心险恶!!!! >_<

2008-08-23T04:48:00.004+08:00

DT told me some stuffs today and makes me realised that 人心真的很险恶，很恐怖。。。 some ppl can appear really sincere and nice in front of u, but u nv know what they're thinking and what they really wan from you... its really scary you know? how complex a human heart can be...

im too naive and trust someone too easily, so sometimes i wonder if i'm really suitable for this line... esp after what DT told me... i start to ponder that maybe a simple life wud b much beta...? perhaps im just too freak out... i really need to learn to judge ppl smartly...

will be going up to DT's studio on mon to try out on the productions he told me about... u see but now after hearing those stuffs, im beginning to b really sensitive and kept thinking too much... i've lost e trust, in anyone... scary feeling... paranoid too... =(

n it also means that everything that i tot is gonna work out, became a nightmare instead over e nite... haii... when wud i eva gets nearer to this dream of mine...? wait... just wait...

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the lyrics of this song fits me and speaks my mind perfectly...

Tanya - 无底洞

有时寂寞太沉重　
身边彷佛只是观众
你的感受没有人懂　
难得谁自告奋勇
体贴让人格外感动　
爱上他前后用不到一分钟

嘿　回想恋情的内容　
有谁想过有始有终
不过是一时脆弱让人放纵

嘿穿梭一段又另一段感情中
爱为何总填不满又掏不空
很快就风起云涌　
人类的心是个无底洞　

尝试亲吻尝试拥抱或沟通
没有好感再尝试也没有用
大多数人都相同
喜欢的只是爱情的脸孔

没有谁背后怂恿　
不该爱又爱的冲动
是你害怕孤单而拼命补充　

嘿　回想恋情的内容
有谁想过有始有终
不过是一时脆弱让人放纵

嘿穿梭一段又另一段感情中
爱为何总填不满又掏不空
很快就风起云涌　
人类的心是个无底洞　

尝试亲吻尝试拥抱或沟通
没有好感再尝试也没有用
大多数人都相同
喜欢的只是爱情的脸孔

thanks.

2008-08-21T14:42:00.002+08:00

went for dinner with khakis @ work ytd - angela, eve and monkey... jazz didn't join us, sad... =(

we had our long-awaited 'dim sum' @ Sunshine Plaza! soo nicey!!

after that we head down to Mr Bean to have our usual heart-to-heart ger's talk... yes, with monkey around.. well, we've long treated him as 'zi ji ren' already anyway... so we dun mind him ard seriously... lol~

after monkey left, we 3 girls had an even more in-depth chat... hur hur hur... all e way till 12plus midnight... ain't we girls 'chang qi'... anyway, enjoyed my nite with them 2 so much!!! =D

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after the chat, everything's much better...

i'm sorry to avoid, sorry to hide...

thanks for understanding me, thanks for compromising...

all the best for ur career & future! all e best to mine too... =)

u'll always be a very special fren to me... u know it...

i really hope u will achieve what u wana achieve in life, i'll keep u in my prayers...

tkcare over there!! okii? =)

...It's gonna hurt when it heals too, It'll all get better in time...

2008-08-21T14:31:00.001+08:00

Leona Lewis - Better in Time

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I'm Yours... =)

2008-08-20T16:57:00.005+08:00

Im Yours - Jason Mraz

The only song that can brightens up my mood whenever i bu kai xin~~~~~

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

Well you done done me and you better felt it
I tried to be chill but you so hot that i melted
I fell right through the cracks and i'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out i'll be givin it my bestest
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love
listen to the music of the moment maybe seen with me
Ah, la peaceful melodie
It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved Loved

So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate, i'm yours

*scat*

I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm a sayin'is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, i'm sure
(there's no need to complicate
our time is short
it cannot wait (this is our fate), i'm yours 2x

no please don't complicate, our time is short
this is our faith, im yours.
no please don't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, the sky is yours!)

well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
i love one big family
it's our god forsaken right to be loved, loved, loved, loved
open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
i love happy family
it's our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
i love peaceful melodies
it's our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved.

SUPER LOVE THIS SONG CAN!!! =)

-bu kai xin-

2008-08-20T14:20:00.002+08:00

我很不开心啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！

haiz... dun ask me why la......... =((((((

Finals @ Whiskey Bar...

2008-08-19T13:56:00.011+08:00

Seowting & me!

2nd, 1st, 3rd =)

Congrats!

石康军 presenting the prize to me!

while waiting for results...

Sylvia and Tianz

singing 没有烟抽的日子。。

duno what im thinking...

tianz won the first prize! hehe... proud of myself~ i deserve a pat on my back rite? =P

felt really good getting the 'ken ding' from dai lou and also the other judge 石康军 (our local singer who wrote great songs!) he even add in saying that if no one were to sign me, look for him, he will do it... wah... sibei shiok to hear that! muahaha... :P

another good thing is the cash prize of coz!! *wink*

Congrats to Seowting for getting 2nd runner-up too!! =D

overall, really thank my dearest mun and moy for coming down to support me!! n of coz all my beloved eai friends who had gone thru these comp tog... gary, shin, seowting, dan, syl, ruyu!! all of u r really the best lor! i enjoyed all the singing sessions, selecting of songs sessions with all of u manz! =D

can fully concentrate on AQH now... hopefully everything goes smoothly too... =)

to all of u out there who had shown ur full support to me to continue and strive in this line, i will definitely jiayou and wun give up... no worries! =D

shdn't be thinking of any other unnecessary stuffs now anymore...

wudn't it be great and better if i cud just focus on my singing now? =)

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-celebrating Bear's bday this fri... i'm in charge of organizing the outing but no idea @ all whr shd we head to!! help!!

-thought of getting all eai friends to Whiskey on Sat to hv a belated celebration! hope all are able to make it... =)

sibei sibei tired... i'm sleeping and eating my lunch @ e same time earlier leh... really...

6pm come fast... i need to SLEEP!!

boring...

2008-08-17T16:50:00.003+08:00

no mood @ all to blog recently... seems like things r not going very smoothly for me again in everything... it's a cycle... -_-

felt REALLY stupid... but well, life still goes on... all things happens for a reason...

felt REALLY sorry... i just need more time... u will understand...

felt REALLY tired... everyday~ i dunno why...

felt REALLY excited... finals tmr... all the best to me! =)

i luv to create probs for myself....... kill me!

萧亚轩 - 冲动

2008-08-14T22:07:00.003+08:00

萧亚轩 - 冲动

很感激这城市拥挤的交通
让你我还能多相处几分钟
人潮中怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松不放松

忍不住想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我会有点寂寞
你给的幸福在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂

我的心是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我想你的时间不够用
为什么平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我你改变我

你是情人还是朋友
还没勇气想得太多
你的世界如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落

recent new fav... luv e lyrics so much....

congrats! =)

2008-08-12T16:14:00.004+08:00

congrats to gary, daniel, seowting, sylvia & me! we got in to the finals~ hehe..

actually what im most happy about is not getting into the finals, but getting the affirmation from dai lou! hearing him saying that i've finally open up and tt he has given me very high marks really makes my day so muchiee!! =D

2nd rd of aud @ AQH is pretty good too i supposed.. maybe becoz im more relax over thr, not too stress, only stressing myself on the Whiskey semi final... anyway, results not out yet still.. shall wait for e result next mon ba~ ping chang xin~~~

DT called me last week.. telling me some of the plans and productions he had and he might wants to get me to work with him... of coz i wish to grab every chances given to me, but i knw too tt im too lack of experience in all these.. lack of confidence too mayb? but well, like what he said, everyone starts frm nothing to something 1 day... im definitely looking forward to wkin with him.. =)
oh did i mention tt he sings DAMN good?!?! we're all totally mesmerize by his voice when we're @ sake tt day... its been really long eva since someone's voice cud actually touched my heart man, im serious.. after some chat with him den we found out tt he is actually the back up vocal of famous singers like Tao Ze, Ah-mei, JJ and Wang LeeHom during their concerts... no wonder he's damn good... my new idol la!! hehehe...

i will definitely jiayou.. i do hope to achieve smthing in life too..
i actually sees the fire burning in me once again... its good news.. hope this time rd i wun giv up so easily like e past anymore....

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silvia's surprise bday party on sat is a success!! me n mimi managed to MIA for ard 2days not answering her calls and sms... according to boon, she is so damn sad and disappointed.. coz we totally ignored her despite is her bday and her mdis fren lied too saying they r busy n not free to mit her for bday dinner... hehehe... but everythin is worth it seeing the super surprise look on her face when she sees us thr la~ =D

all thanks to boon for making our dearest bebe a happy girl once again... 3 cheers to boon~~~~~~~~~~ ^_^

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missing my dearest mun so muchie~ seems like we haven been meeting up so often like the past recently... i've got sooo much to catch up with her! can't wait to see her soon in 1hr time... =)

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recently feeling abit vexed over some stuffs... unnecessary stuffs as usual... n dunno y forever not having enuff sleep... haii...

dun wana b bothered bout anything now, only wana concentrate on my goal in life...

to that special someone - just rmb this, "Work hard, so we can play harder!" so, lets work hard tog for now... =)

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realised i fall in luv with the song & lyrics of 檫肩而过 again after hearing it tt day at DF...
hmmmm...

我爱着谁爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁能够把我让我变不对
你不会累但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁不顾安危付出一切
站在这平衡点我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见只能够靠感觉

他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过

我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

你听我说你不要这么做
你不要看着我说你已经知道怎么做
你很难受我愿意陪你一起承受
只要你不怕痛再多坎坷我都陪你走
站在这平衡点我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见只能够靠感觉

他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过

我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

无赖

2008-08-11T09:57:00.003+08:00

无赖 - 郑中基

我间中饮醉酒很喜欢自由
常犯错爱说谎但总会内疚
遇过很多的损友学到贪新厌旧
亦欠过很多女人

怕结婚只会守三分钟诺言
曾话过要戒烟但讲了就算
梦与想丢低很远但对返工厌倦
自小不会打算

但是仍唯独你爱我这废人
出错你都肯去忍
然而谁亦早知不会合衬
偏偏你愿意等

为何还喜欢我我这种无赖
是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩口碑有多坏
但你亦永远不见怪

何必跟我我这种无赖
没大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心跟我笑著捱
就算坏我也不忍心偷偷作怪

没有跟的野种飘忽的命途
谁像你当我宝甚黱也做到
旧爱手中一疋布在这刻写句号
只想跟你终老

在地球唯独你爱我这废人
出错你都肯去忍
然而谁亦早知不会合衬
偏偏你愿意等

为何还喜欢我我这种无赖
是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩口碑有多坏
但你亦永远不见怪

何必跟我我这种无赖
没大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心跟我笑著捱
就算我也不忍心

还喜欢我我这种无赖
是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩口碑有多坏
但你亦永远不见怪

何必跟我我这种无赖
没大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心跟我拼命捱
换转别个也忍心偏偏作怪

it's quite an old song, but still...

luv this song.. luv the lyrics!! true & meaningful... :S

PICS from BEAUFORT with AQUARIANS!!

2008-08-07T14:34:00.038+08:00

enjoying the sun...

we're going to the beach beach beach~ how about u u u~

nicey!!

bleah~

ugly

nicey 2~

bestie ah ray @ me~

ah ray & ah ting~ my happy friends!~~

us @ the lobby b4 everyone rch

the twins & me...

she nv fails to make me laugh like a mad woman...

they really brightens up my days!!~

babes & hunk by the beach~ *vomit on e hunk part*

kidding laaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ =P

mei mei!!

pinkish~

Fake candid..

Candid~

blur but nicey~

Hawaii~~

i luv ah bao!! =)

this is addictive...

sexy ah bao~ kakaka (got wear clothes one la inside....)

luv tis pic! luv all my dears in Aquarius! =)

Us in the lift...

Buddha shines?

her fav gui nian...

Cheezels for u?

Sexy~

The stylos.. VS..

..The toots...

Woot!

"Watch out KM!!"

retards...

大男人小女人。。

before checking out...

silly... (km sibei funny... ahahhaa)

Money No Enough 2

2008-08-07T13:58:00.002+08:00

Congrats to Gary, Ruyu & Seowting for getting in to the Semi Finals too!!! happy!! =D

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Watched 'Money No Enough 2' ytd with Andy @ AMK hub.. it's really very very good!! local movies by Jack Neo never fails to make me teared and laugh like mad... the storyline is really great, admire Jack Neo's talent in producing such movies... whenever i look @ the ahma, my heart will be aching lor... her acting ish really damn good! i teared too looking @ how mark lee treats vivian lai, n yet she is still so damn devoted to him, doing all that for him with no regrets @ all... haii... 女人真伟大。。。

its a must watch!!

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looking forward to my wkends!! lalala~~~ =D

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thanks to this very special fren of mine, for everything that you've done and said...
the time we spent together for the past 3 days tho its short, but i'm contented...
work hard!! so we can play harder after these 3 mths... =)

my wkends @ Sentosa Beaufort Hotel

2008-08-03T23:40:00.003+08:00

im supposed to be sleeping now seriously...

my whole body is aching like hell and im very very tired...

the 2days 1night stay @ Sentosa Beaufort Hotel with Aquarians ish damn fun la!! really hv to comment that the hotel is really super beautiful... the room might seems a lil small (to accomodate e 7 of us) but i still love it... v.v.cosy and comfortable.. it juz seems like a resort to us man... beach just a short distance away, swimming pool juz beside e hotel lobby...

we played volleyball and took some pics @ Silosa beach when we rch on Sat... it was a super duper sunny afternoon... n poor me ray and ting, cudn't chk in even tho we rch first coz we need xz to b thr since she is e one who booked.. so e 3 of us walked allll e way frm tanjong beach to silosa... eh damn hot lor i tell u... i was dying of thirst and perspiring like mad... it's much beta when we rch e beach tho... baoling, xz, gary arrived after tt... continue our volleyball while some of them went to swim in e beach..

finali bck to hotel rm @ ard 7plus... bathed, relac, watch tv... till kianmeng rch... dinner time!! wanted to eat kou fu but closed.. :( sentosa is damn pathetic @ nite, ntg to eat! all closed! guess wat we ended up eating for dinner?? 7 eleven microwaved food lor!! loL~~ but surprisingly we all enjoyed so much leh.. its really quite nice man seriously... kekeke... bck to hotel rm after tt n time to start our games n drinkings!! always enjoyed with them ard~ they reali nv failed to crack me up all e time! we had so much fun playing, drinking and heart to heart chat thruout e nite till 4plus 5am... conked out after tt!

we chked out @ 2pm e next day and decided to continue out activities for sun... we just cudn't bear to leave one another la!! muaahahha.. :P anyway, went to KTV @ Dynasty frm 4-7pm... den went to boat quay to hv our dinner and finali, hm sweet hm....

we chatted soo much this 2 days and i realy enjoyed every single actitives with them ard... it's such a blessing to knw such a fun bunch of friends who shares e common interest - singing... =) i lovee u guys!!! =D

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waiting for tues to come quickkk... its been a week already...
omg only a week n i cant tk it already, cant imagine how im gona tahan for a mth.... ~_~
but well, i'll still wait and still be good... =)

TAG! - mun pls do it

2008-08-03T22:06:00.003+08:00

Alright, i'm gonna say the same thing...
"Why am i doing this? This is so not me... haiz.."

i could have siam from this 'tag' thing but apparently i was too bored 1 fine day and so i went to view ray's blog (this dun happens everyday, reali.. :P) and then tada~~ he 'tag' me to do tis.. n even nudge me in msn to do it... ~__~

okok here u go...

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A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
do back the same to him! yi ya huan ya wat.......
nahhh kidding laaa!
hmm... it really depends on to wat extend the betrayal is... but seriously speaking, i will nv forget, even if i were to forgive... so whats the point of continuing tis r/s when there's no more trust? so ok, my reaction is, i'll leave him...

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
Hmmm!! Ray... can i copy you?? i want to hav a dream of all my dreams coming true too... =D

#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
somewhr by the beach (must be a beautiful one!) with only my closest friends and family around......???
frankly speaking, i know every girls will always dream of their perfect wedding... but for me, i've nv really tot of it b4... juz as long as im happy... n i think whats most impt is the person u're marrying to rather than the dream wedding....

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Of coz i am, definitely i am......

#5. What’s your ideal lover like?
ehh i think i defined this b4 in one of my previous entry leh... hahaha...
ermmm... someone humorous, mature and charming...?
but aiyaa, whats e point of defining my ideal lover when all i usually rely on is the 'chemistry' between e 2 of us... when e 'chemistry' is right, all e factors tt i listed above r just secondary....

#6. Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
Hmm... neither...
Being loved by someone whom i love is the most blessed thing....

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
wait?? i believe nv to waste ur time waiting for someone who doesn't have the heart to be with you anymore... you're missing out many many other good ones out there who might turns out to be someone u really love 1 day...

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
huh? wun do anything of coz... give them my blessings and try to see him lesser...? i always believe time heals... n v.soon someone worth ur liking will appear without u noticing...

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Hmm.. Yes.. alot... i'm easily affected by small stuffs.. =(
but still.. 现在还是开心胜过不开心.. =D

#10. Is being tagged fun?
Err... its good tt u're e 1st to cross ur fren's mind when he's tinking of who to tag la... but then it's really not very fun when i'm already so tired yet still hv to crack my brains for answers to these qns leh... kekeke...

#11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
ehh i'm not attending a job interview now, dun ask me this qns lor..... ~_~

#12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
Family always.. n of coz my precious besties who r always in my heart - Mun, Moy, zhu, usual gang, Angela, Silvia, Mimi, peihua, Aquarians and you... omg alot la! how to list down all?!

#13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
Ermmm... Hmmm... Ehh.... Err...... *speechless*
kidding la!!! how could i eva b speechless over such a NICE fren i knw in life!! he's extremely helpful n patient no matter how many times i disturb him for songs, he's always sooo spontaneous n enthu in organizing gatherings/outings/celebrations for Aquarius, he can always tolerate all my nonsense and not gets irritated! aiyaa overall he is just a super wonderful fren to hv la!! kekeke.... (dun fly hoh ray...)

#14. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
Rich and Single la....... dun ask me y. ask urself y if ur ans is e 2nd one...

#15. What’s the first thing you do every morning?
Ehh this time i really dun mean to copy you but e first thing u do every morning is really the first ting i do every morning too leh~~ hohoho...
awoken by my hp alarm, look @ e time, press 'snooze' and den slp back again...

#16. Would you give all in a relationship?
Hmm... i guess so? if i felt that he is worth it...

#17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
huh?? ermm... e one who will make me laff more and i'll felt more comfortable with? haha i really duno la... funny qns to ans...

#17b. If you fall in love with 2 people, would you pick the one whos THE ONE whom you love trulymadlydeeply but theres that slight possibility he might leave you high and dry eventually, or would you pick the safe one, the one who loves you more than you do?
i will pick the 1st one... dun ask me why, i've said b4 feelings plays a major part for me...

#18. What type of friends do you like?
friends who are always willing to share everything about them with me... i love to listen and i love to hang around with friends who felt comfortable with me too...

#19. What type of friends do you dislike?
friends who dun appreciates you and takes u for granted...
im some1 who takes friendship very seriously, so i cant stand ppl who behaves like wat i mentioned above..

#20. If you have to choose between love and friendship, what would it be?
Refuse to ans... both r impt to me...
y do i hv to choose?!?! funny......

yeah done!! wah... can't believe i reali spent my time answering all these... it's actuali quite fun la... kakaka...

now tag who? Hm... of coz is non other than my dearest MUN la.... hehehe.. complete tis hoh bitch.. =D

Aquarians

2008-07-31T12:03:00.002+08:00

My beloved Aquarians during my surprise bday celebration @ Sentosa... =)

Love you guys so muchieee!!!

Thursday Blues...

2008-07-31T11:39:00.003+08:00

BORED.......

this week is indeed a super boring week... esp today... no prog, no 1 free to go out with me... =(((

its ok! look on the bright side!
i'm heading back home straight to watch ‘星光’ that i've missed last week!! =D
been so busy for the past weeks that i've got no time to catch it...
oh well, since no one is free for me now, i finali got e time then... *self-consolation* ~__~

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alright let me tell u my activities over the wkends when someone is not around...

Fri - Boilers with the ladies...
Sat & Sun - xz booked a hotel room @ Sentosa (Beaufort) with her staff rate and all of us Aquarians r gg to stay over for 2 days 1 night! its gona b funnn~~~ =)

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being stupid once is enough...
if it happens e 2nd time, den... u're really beyond hope. n pathetic too.

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2008-07-30T23:14:00.002+08:00

MISSSS !!!!!!!!

haiz......

1 month...... =(

PICS~

2008-07-29T12:23:00.014+08:00

Love this pic! with Andy & Mun!! :D

me & my dearest bitch @ DF

Daniel & me!

Andy & me @ Sake

Cutee~

Love this! =D

Handsome & Pretty @ Partyworld! =P

Us @ DF

My Sweet Lala & me!

My beautiful Mun & me!

Sweety Sylvia & me!

Lovely Seowting & me!

Bestie Gary & me!

my very yummy and beautiful chocolatey-cheesy cake specially bake by dearest Ah Bao!! =D

Updates finally...

2008-07-29T11:25:00.004+08:00

haven been updating for a week plus... very busy and tiring everyday... zzz

updates!

- got thru to semi-finals for Whiskey Bar's competition.. appreciate so much for those ppl who came down to support and acc me! mun, angela, andy, DL and moy... =) thankie!!
- got thru to AQH's 2nd round too. =D
- my dearest Angela is not leaving us anymore!! after much persuadings from us, she finally decided to stay... happy!! =)

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Thurs - kianmeng invited me to help him to be the 'special guest' for his reservist camp @ tengah air base to sing a few songs for their charity fund raising event... nv hv i been to or sing @ any performance in a plc whr i'm the only girl... erm ok well, quite a good experience tho... after tt Andy came to picked me up (thx to him, tt plc is sibei ulu and FAR!) and we head down to Sake to look for Gary and gang... Luis Kat n Don joined us too after tt.. OH! guess who did we saw thr?! Chen Long's son 'fang zhu ming'... hmm but not handsome... ended e nite @ ard 2plus..

DF last fri is fun! supposed to b Angela's farewell but since mun told me that she will be there with her colleagues, Angela suggested we shall go down thr too.. =D many ppl went tt day... Mun and her colleagues, Terry and his colleagues, me and my colleagues, Andy, Luis, Don, Clarence, David, SYK... i've nv liked DF, but the company tt day made me enjoyed alot! :) busy looking after mun and angela as they drank a lil too much tt day, tkin over their responsibilities during my bday... =P anyway we ended e nite @ ard 3plus? and then me andy angela and DL went down to ECP to lame and chill till morning 6plus! we're crazy... but enjoyed still~ =)

spend my sat sleeping till late noon and then mun came over to my house to find me... thanks to her for accompanying me till late nite when Andy finally arrived in sg... loveee you my dearest bitch!!! =)

meet up with Andy on sun to watch Dark Knight @ Cathay... nt v.fantastic.. still prefer Iron Man! n den after e movie we head down to Orchard Partyworld~ 4hrs KTV session juz e 2 of us~~ sing till damn shiok! =D fun~~~ took lotsa pics and videos too! kekeke...

Mon - quarter finals @ Whiskey.. Oni mun, angela and moy managed to catch my singing.. Andy and DL was late therefore they missed it~ but its ok, they shall b forgiven.. since Andy specially rushed all e way down frm JB and DL run all e way frm Chinatown... hahaa.. thanks for coming anyway ppl! :D after the competition, me andy angela and DL stayed @ Qool bar to sing till ard 12plus... thanks Gary for staying just to choose a good song for me for e next rd~ hehe =D

how can i not be tired? I've not been sleeping earlier than 2 am since last week... shagg...

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thanks to you for sacrificing ur sleep and time travelling frm JB to SG everytime... i really appreciate it so much!!!

1 month till ur return... pls tkcare over thr...

sooo many things i wish to say but not over here... you know i know i know you know.... ~_~

BDAY PICS!! - FRI & SAT

2008-07-21T16:50:00.047+08:00

My Birthday Celebrationsss!!

2008-07-21T04:30:00.003+08:00

this yr's bday is one of the BEST i've ever celebrated...

thanks for all the surprises, all the wishes, everyone's presence @ boilers and most importantly, everything you've done for me... =)

i really enjoyed so much! im blessed with all the ppl around me! =)

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5 surprises i received this year which seriously touches me so much....

1) the beautiful precious moments jigsaw puzzle from my dearest mun... esp sending it all e way to my home for me! :)

2) the bouquet of flower Rex delivered to me on thurs to my office... m reali shocked to receive it but thanks so much for the thoughts! :)

3) thad's self-drawn card specially for me... awwww... so sweeet...

4) andy carrying the big bouquet of chocolate-flower (i duno wat to call that but i LOVE it!!!) @ boilers specially for me... so sweeet n funny.. confirm attracted many glances... :P n most imptly, that beautiful card from you... i really really love it so much...... n the songs!! =)

5) aquarians's surprise bday celebration for me @ Sentosa!!! touched!! :D

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Fri
Bday lunch with office ppl @ a dim sum plc... very nicey! thanks for the awfully chocolate cake and vouchers from u guys!! =)
after work went for dinner with mun, syk and moy... supposed to go holland V, but no parking @ all.. so we head down to another plc recommended by syk instead.. cant rmb the name.. anyway we had jap food.. n tho expensive but it's really gooood! thanks syk for the treat!! keke... :)
den we met up with clarence and 2 of his other friends @ Wansome... sing, played games, drink thruout e nite.. @ 12am sharp i received a call from A singing to me a bday song... hehehe... thankssss... =)

Sat
had a mini celebration @ hm with my family first before going to boilers... mun and moy came too... mummy they all cooked curry chix (BEST!!!!), pizza and beehoon... n this yr's card from them is really a surprise for me.. my dearest Thad boy self-drawn one for me!! sooo sweeet!! hehehe... angela came up to join in e cuttin-cake session.. after tt we rushed down to boilers immed...
celebration @ boilers... thanks to everyone's presence!! appreciate it soo much!! n thanks to sj and gang for e bday cake.. tho i was tooo drunk @ tt point of time n i cudn't recall cutting the cake, makin wish, blowing off the candles @ all.... ok to b exact, i dun rmb how e cake looks like... =S lucky mun took pics of it... keke... Andy arrived later and when i went to look for him, he was carrying a bouquet of chocolate-flower standing by e stairs looking for me... when i saw him with tt, i was so touched yet felt paiseh for him... haha... :P really love it so muchhh.... v.v.niceee... esp the super lovely bday card...... i cant stop reading it over n over again.... THANKS!! =) lucky to hv Andy, mun, moy, angela n everyone around me looking after me that nite... when i tink bck nw, i can only recall myself falling down everywhr i go.... :P thanks to the waterfall from boon..... but i still reali reali enjoyed myself alot with all of u ard.... =) oh, n apologize to those ppl who hv my vomit on ur shoes..... =P thanks for e present frm boon silvia qf mimi, angie, luis+kat, n e usual gang tt nite... love it lots... =)

Sun
i was waiting e whole day @ hm for aquarius to inform me of whr and wat time we're going out... becoz its meant to b a surprise so im not aware of anything about the celebration @ all... gary called me and say he will come pick me up @ 645pm n bring me to e respective plc... i was sleepin all e way durin e journey... so even when we rch e destination, im not aware of whr is it at all... after tt den i realised is Sentosa... den gary brought me to a shelter in e middle of the beach and there they was!!! i was super super touched when i saw them... they prepared lotsa foods and drinks... everyone is in charge of one each... awww... how can i not luv them?!?! they're super sweeet to me... no wonder ray die die dun wana disclose anythin to me.. its indeed a big surprise... n oso i hv a self-made bday cake frm baoling!!! luv it so much!!! super nicey... hehehe... we eat, played games, and some heart-to-heart chat by the beach... the feeling ish so so good... i always enjoyed so much with them around... =) frankly speaking this is the type of perfect bday celebration i'll luv, with everyone's great effort in preparing the foods and stuffs for me, rather than an expensive dinner or gift.... thanks aquarians!!! =)
after e celebration, andy came to pick me up and we went to Labrador park... =)

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i enjoyed this yr's bday so much... coz i've got many many wonderful friends around me...

really wanna thank my most precious bestie LOH CHUN MUN!! i knw how much effort u've put in to make me a happy girl past few days... i really appreciate it so much!! tho u kept saying that u're a lousy planner but no, with u around its really more than enough le!! hehehe... LOVE U BITCH!!!!

n of coz Andy.. i really appreciate everything you've done too... not only on my bday this yr, but for the past few years too... =) thanks for looking after me everywhr i go on boilers tt nite, thanks for the choc-flowers, the beautiful and meaningful card, the songs =), thanks for entertaining my friends even tho most of them is e 1st time u've met, n thanks for ur presence... reali wana apologize for wat happened tt nite... u know i know... thx for being so understanding... =)

blessed blessed me.... =)

BIG surprise from my dearest bestie... =)

2008-07-16T22:10:00.005+08:00

i received my 1st big bday surprise from my dearest mun today!!! m super super touched... i can't rmb the last time i receive surprises on my bday so im really SO HAPPY!!!

was supposed to mit mun and syk @ s.goon garden coffee bean just now... but becoz i didn't receive their calls even up till 8plus 9, so i assumed we're not meeting anymore... i went to bath and wash up, chged to my pyjamas n relac till sleeping time... suddenly @ bout 915pm mun called me and ask me to mit... i was already super lazy and really dun feel like gg out anymore so i turn her down and say we'll meet tmr instead... she sound kinda disappointed but well, i tot shall giv her n syk some time to tian mi mi so shd b ok la... den suddenly after 5 mins she called me again and ask me to open my door~~~ i tot she's just kiddin lor... i open my door n saw her with a SUPER BIG present... a very very BIG n NICE precious moments jigsaw puzzle!!! its really damn big n beautiful!! most imptly, SHE DID IT ALL BY HERSELF!!! what touches me even more is i rmb 1 or 2 mths ago, i read one of her entries about her mentioning that she spend 2 days completing something for someone very special to her... i ask her who tt person was she say is S... now den i know is actually for me~~~ I LOVE HER TO BITS LOR!!!! my bestest bestest bestie!! im REALLY very touched!! =)

took photo of e puzzle but the card reader is @ er jie's hse... can't load... =(

surprises really brightens up my day so much!! esp frm ppl i loveeee... =D

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i wanna watch RED CLIFF!! everyone around me had watched le... sad sad... =(

2008-07-16T14:54:00.001+08:00

Thank God I Found You

I would give up everything
Before I'd separate myself from you
After so much suffering
I've finally found unvarnished truth
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heart it would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful i found you.

I would give you everything
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you
Because without you beside me I can't survive
Don't wanna try
If you're keeping me warm each and every night
I'll be all right
Cause I need you in my life

Thank God I found you (I'm thanking you)
I was lost without you (so lost without you)
My every wish and every dream (every dream, every dream)
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight (brought the sunlight)
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you.

See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess it shows
That we were destined to shine
After the rain to appreciate
The gift of what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

Thank God I found you
I was lost lost without you (lost without you baby)
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life (whole life)
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Sweet baby I'm so thankful
I found you

Thank God I found you
I'm lost lost without you
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful
I found you

I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful I found you

PMS

2008-07-16T14:25:00.002+08:00

the bu-fei we went to eat yesterday ish soo niceeyy!! but i swear its definitely NOT 'Bu-Fei' @ all lor!! after eating i felt as if i gained 20kgs.. is either that or i'm suddenly 7months pregnant after that meal... SUPER FULL!! its been very long eva since i ate till this full, really lor... scary... even Angela also say my stomach super big! kakaka... =P

maybe due to eating too much meat ytd, my temper and mood sibei bad today... i'm very tired, yet very full, resulted in my pek-chekness... =( can today pass fast fast fast plsss......

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really can't wait for Sat to come quick!! 5 days tho seems short, but its really quite a long wait for me le... =( but well, i know i have to understand and get used to it! only can pray hard that time will pass faster . . . . . .

this sat is also my bday celebration @ boilers with all my close friends... hope all those tt i've invited, will be present that nite!! =)

sat sat kuai dian lai . . . . . . i'm falling 'sick' le . . . . . . u know i know i know u know. . . . . .

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feeling super vexed now... dunno vexing over what... just dun felt good... haii...

boss called me in ytd to talk to me about my sales and what i'm planning to do now... i told him frankly that i've lost the motivation, and i understand too i need to really buck up... very nice of him to not giving me any stress and just tell me to put in more effort and be more focus... i admit i've long lost that focus already, and m really not putting in any effort at all recently... i dunno what i wan... fan si ren... ~_____~

i NEED to go on a holiday !!!! sick of SG... sick of life here smtimes...
but no more leaves... n no money... =(
can money just drop from the sky for me pls?

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.thanks.

2008-07-15T02:17:00.002+08:00

It felt so good to be truly appreciated . . . . . . =)

Audition...

2008-07-15T01:46:00.002+08:00

Can't slp can't slp!!! haii......

went for 爱琴海 audition earlier... at first i thought im no.6... so sing finish le can go back earlier... but ends up i'm so damn far back!! 23!! ah ray no.3, gary no.4, ting no.10.... so nice of them to wait for me... thanks!! hehe... all thanks to myself for changing my song last min.. ends up e song tt i chged, same with e other 2 contestants too... so no choice they hv to seperate the 3 of us n me ended up singing e last few... =( but welllll, everything goes well still! =) heard from alvin that all the other judges put me as first choice~~~ so happyyy lehh~~~~ =D but still, hv to see e results next mon first....

i'll do my best, like i've promised you... =) thanks for being SO supportive... all these years... =)

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haiii.... bored bored bored.........

4 more days.......... =(

Wonderful Weekends!! =)

2008-07-14T01:46:00.003+08:00

Fri - celebrated Moy's bday @ Dempsey - PS Cafe, together with mun and SYK... the food ish really a disappointment... but i LOVE the deserts!!!! and the service thr is definitely excellent.. we ordered a small cake wanted to treat that as a bday cake for moy... then those staffs knwin that its for someone's bday, a few of them bring the cake over and sang a bday song for moy!! all of us r super shocked... moy's so paiseh... haha.. :P but its a pleasant surprise la... :)

den after dempsey, we got no whr to go.. so decided to join PO and his friends @ a pub somewhr ard beach rd, if im not wrong... played some games, sang a few songs thr... and den gotta know Daniel, one of PO's fren's fren... really a very cute and humorous person... we're practically laming away thru out like we've already knw each other for v.long... but of coz i've got a mission on hand actuali other than just lamin with him... kekeke... shall nt disclose.. :P anywayyyy, mun n syk left us earlier @ bout 12plus.. the rest of us left @ bout 1plus 2 after tt... hope my dear moy enjoyed her bday celebration with us... i hope we didn't made u too bored... =) love you honey!!!

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Sat - Cao Ge's concert ish GREAT!! tho there's no dance or anything special from him, BUT just sitting there listening to his powerful voice is enuff to make me fall in luv with him more.... super nice lor!! and he is really damn cute and funny... i always tot he is those shy type but he's really cute!! heheh... but m so disappointed coz he didn't sing my fav song 《爱到最后一秒也不委屈》.. =(
overall i still enjoyed lots la... oh, 杨宗伟 is there as audience too!!! super shocked to see him... if only he sang a few songs too...

after that was supposed to go down to DF to look for Andy.. but poor us (me shunjie n elgene) not able to get any cab @ all... tooo many ppl waitin for cab after the concert... super thanks to Daniel my saviour for coming to pick us up and send us to our respective destination... really appreciate it so much... thanks thanks... =)

stayed in DF for awhile with Andy.. Luis n Kat are thr too.. =) actuali Andy was supposed to go down to MOS for another fren's bday, but we ended up didn't go.. head down to ECP instead... =) ECP that night was super duper cooling... the wind is so strong, sitting by e beach enjoying e breeze and chatting away, the feeling ish super shiok lor!! chat n relax till bout 5am and we headed back home... really enjoyed ur company so much.... =)

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sunday - woke up @ ard 2plus.. headed in to JB with Andy @ bout 3plus and it was so jam!! we're practically stucked in the jam for like an hr... smmore it was so sunny!! was supposed to go in for but kut teh den durian after that... but so sad the but kut teh stall is closed... =( so since both of us r like super hungry ghost, we settled down @ smwhr to hv our breakfast cum lunch cum dinner first... We went over to Jusco's cinema, wanted to catch 'Red Cliff' but so SAD it's not out yet...... =( so we ended up watching 'Hellboy' instead... lousy movie lor.. quite boring.. but quite funny la some parts... after e movie we headed bck to his uncle's plc and hv our long-awaited DURIANS!!! DELICIOUSSS~~~~~~~~~ verry yummy dummy lor~~~~ hehehe... ate quite alot, tho i can still eat but must control! so sinful man... V.thoughtful of Andy, knowing that my family loves durians too, he took the risk to bring some back for them... Hehe.. lucky able to bring it in!! =)

enjoyed my wkends soo much...! Thanks to your company... =)

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tho it took 4 long yrs, but i believe everything's gona be better in the future... thanks so much for everything, really... =)
whenever i think back, it seems like a miracle to me... =)

sweet. blissful. contented. =)

Slacky Slacky FRI . . . . .

2008-07-11T15:19:00.004+08:00

Us @ Geylang having 'Tian Ji'!

这就是传说中我最爱的田鸡！！ =P

very nice fried Tofu! mun's fav.. =)

Tian ji was great as usual ytd!! :D but dunno y i'll nv had enuff of it... always think it's too little... even tho i had 2 tian ji to myself... fat fat fat!!! ~__~
Po and SYK joined us after that too... after eating, headed bck hm straight...

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Can't wait for SAT seriously! finally after 4 days.... =)
and also, m gonna see 曹格 tmr!!!!! =D jazz lend me his camera and ask me to help him take as many pics as possible... Well, i hope i'm able to... hope its not too far... hehe...

Sun will b heading in to Msia with Andy for DURIANS !!! favvv !!! =D
n hope we're able to catch 梁朝伟's new movie 'Red Cliff' in msia too... i can't wait to watch him !!!

SO many things to look forward to... hehe... *HAPPY* =)

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Bear kept telling me this... "Why do you wanna be so affected by how others look @ you when it's your own life you're leading now?!?! as long as u're happy urself can le ma..."

Ok thanks for your lecture seriously bestie, actually you're right lah... i know i know... but it's just me, i tend to think too much and be too bothered @ times ma... ok, it's most of the time......

anywayyyy, TRUE, most imptly is i'm happy now... and i am... =)

i will try my best to help you plan that genting trip you yearn to go for your bday celebration... promise! okie? n i will try my very best to b there too... =)

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Meeting up with my dearest mun n moy in 3hrs time... for the celebration of moy's bday @ Dempsey... hope dinner will be good... =)

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actually, i admit i'm kinda worried sometimes when i think bout it... coz i seriously hate to see the same thing repeating itself in the near future... i really dun wan it to happen... but yet most of the time i'm so out of control myself... hai... *pray*

I Finally Found Someone...

2008-07-10T13:48:00.003+08:00

I Finally Found Someone

I finally found someone, that knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one, that makes me feel complete
We started over coffee, we started out as friends
It's funny how from simple things, the best things begin

This time it's different
It's all because of you
It's better than it's ever been
'Cause we can talk it through
Oohh, my favorite line was "Can I call you sometime?"
It's all you had to say to take my breath away

This is it, oh, I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one, to be with every night
'Cause whatever I do, it's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone

Did I keep you waiting? I didn't mind
I apologize. Baby, that's fine
I would wait forever just to know you were mine
And I love your hair, sure it looks fine
I love what you wear, isn't it the time?
You're exceptional, I can't wait for the rest of my life

Whatever I do, it's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BESTIE HONEY MOY!!!!! can't wait to meet up with you tmr to celebrate this day with you... truly hope you will stay happy forever and most imptly, found the right one SOON!!!

love you my dear!!! =)

PICS - Company outing to DbL O

2008-07-10T11:01:00.023+08:00

our poor boss.. kana forced to drink Graveyard coz of our evil plan... (make him drunk so no need to work tmr!! kekeke :P but plan failed :( )

after drinking too much...

me and Kungfu Panda !!!

Tian with BOSS & 2nd BOSS

Lala..Tian..Jovian

Ah Po so man~~~~~ hahaha..

Best Friends!! =)

Jovian..Tian..Eve

Cheerss~~~

Act only... this drink sux lor~~~ ~_~

People Profilers's 5 Beauties~~ keke...

Jas is not paying attention~~

The 4 Machos in our Office!

Eve..Angela..Jasmine..Tian

Nice nice...

Tian n Jovian

Tian n Eve

Bestie n Tian

Ladies of PP

the Ladies n the Boss

The Ladies n The Monkey

The Ladies n Kungfu Panda

The Ladies n Macho Man

I Wish... I Pray... I Hope... =)

2008-07-10T10:02:00.004+08:00

Contented. No words could explain. =)

Sweeeeeeeettt!

Can't wait for Sat to come quick . . . . . .

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to my only bro that we all love and cares alot tho we duno how to express ourselves most of the time - "I'M SORRY!!!"

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Meeting my dearest mun finally for Tian Ji tonight... i know she miss the fried tofu so much! so i'll be responsible to finish up all the Tian Ji for her then... =P

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Company outing to DbL O ytd after work... all of us drank sooo much that i almost concuss the moment i reach home but i still stayed up... =) Anyway it's worth it sacrificing that little sleep tho... =)

most imptly im glad i still managed to wake up and go to work the next morning despite my headache... altho Angela n i are the latest... =P

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faster 6pm cann.......... -_- zzz

Fate... =)

2008-07-08T15:56:00.004+08:00

It's really funny how fate works all the time...

"Leave everything to fate..." - a very common sentence i use everytime...

and indeed, fate is doing miracle to us now... =)

it's kinda unbelievable when i think back, but still its a pleasant miracle...

Time will tell... i'm waiting... =)

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Finally after so long, so much unhappiness, so many mistakes made, so many dumb actions n thinkings, i can be truly happy again.... =)

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WORK HARD WORK HARD WORK HARD !!! i've been telling myself this e moment i stepped into the office... but... ~_~

PICS!

2008-07-08T03:11:00.009+08:00

US.. it's been really long since we meet up and took pics together...

Mimi & me @ Clarke Quay

Bebe & me @ Clarke Quay

Angela & me @ Zouk

Andy & me @ Partyworld

Andy @ LK

...The Voice Within...

moodless

good friday = long wkends!! =))

...loving you...

finally an update!

miss...

He's Just Not That Into You...

BEST!

thanx. =)

Jason Mraz feat Colbie Caillat - Lucky =)

randoms.

happiness.?

...

this day...

-ATKE-

TRUE friends whom i've not met for ages...

2009

A-Lin!!!!

鄭秀文 - 她們說

越是幸福越害怕 怕它会结束。。

merry merry xmas~~~~ =)

updates!

random...

pics!!! =D

my enjoyable week!!

wkends with my love ones..

Dedicated to 黎礎寧..

my sweet boy. =)

finally...

randoms for the past weeks.

Tropic Thunder

debut @ aqh~

meet.joe.black

说好的幸福呢..?

sick me. but wonderful wkend.

fun! =)

Lara - 下雨天

丁噹 - 猜不透

S.H.E - 安静了

Happy Bday Daddy!!! =)

congrats to me. =)

its a small world afterall.

the winner takes it all.

my wkends.

misc.

AQH Finals

loved.

sweet~

happiness.

.im yours.

photos!

wonderful weekends..

bad friday..

busy bee~

no motivation..

><

*10 09 08*

wkends..

i thought...

When You're Gone...

《溏心风暴 ‘之’ 家好月园》 - excellent show!

sorry.

True enough...

hopeless...

篮球火 (Hot Shot)

...

人心险恶!!!! >_<

thanks.

...It's gonna hurt when it heals too, It'll all get better in time...

I'm Yours... =)

-bu kai xin-

Finals @ Whiskey Bar...

boring...

萧亚轩 - 冲动

congrats! =)

无赖

PICS from BEAUFORT with AQUARIANS!!

Money No Enough 2

my wkends @ Sentosa Beaufort Hotel

TAG! - mun pls do it

越是幸福越害怕怕它会结束。。

10 09 08